Oh really now!

2011-12-25T14:41:00.001+02:00

Clearly some people have no idea how annoying and unappreciated their facebook statuses are hey.

Some guy posted that he is not christian and does not celebrate christmas. He went on to write how the rest of us are idiots for believing in Jesus Christ.

Really, at first I thought he was kidding till he started a mini war of words about all religions. Oy, I- as expected stayed out of it and opted for the 'block' tab. Some people should either learn what is appropriet to post about on social networks or they must just keep it to themselves and their like minded buddies.

So, Merry Christmas good people, have a blessed day. Be safe, have fun and spread love.

saving me

2011-10-19T02:17:00.001+02:00

I've had to accept a few of my flaws not too long ago and I forgive myself.

I took time to really think about about that whole 'nobody's perfect' statement and fek, I have in the past tortured myself about a lot of things that I had felt were not good enough about / on me.

15years later, I feel like an idiot for second guessing myself because here I am right now feeling that it doesn't it doesn't really matter who says what, I am perfect.... for myself.

I can't let people that don't take time to know me make me feel like I aint all that. Fek that and fek them very much.

Boozed up!

2011-06-03T08:55:00.002+02:00

Yup, you read right!

This is officially my first drunken post!

I don't have much to say except that when I told people that I am leaving Nelspruit, all the wanted to do is get me drunk! What nonsense is that huh?

I am at work now, I had to stay up coz had I slept, I wouldn't have woken up! I came back to the house at 4a.m.

Interesting thing though is that people (around this devil'ish town) really do like talking about me - I am like a topic of interest nje! I think they will the ones to miss me first - really!

highlight of my night - Trying to have a meaningful conversation with a chick high on crack! She's got multiple personalities - it was funny and strange I can tell you that much! She's has some dodgy behaviour going on! She kept yapping for a good 20minutes non stop - pshhh , and peepz thought I'm a motor-mouth!

Need to start on my work now... Later

Letting GO!

2011-05-30T11:55:00.003+02:00

When something is said often enough than it probably is true >>> I say that because in between me doing a lot of thinking and weighing the pros and cons of my latest decision I had to understand the saying"everything happens for a reason". I just hope that I don't have to kick myself afterwards.

I have finally decided to move back home, and when I say home - I really mean home. Sleeping in my old room and old bed! I've never really given Durban a chance, all I know is that I've always loved living in Nelspruit but - this town has really become too small for me, even after taming down a bit to look "normal", my isht is just not working out here.

So basically, I am teaching myself HOW TO LET GO! Plus I strongly believe that if I do move away from this evil place, I will stop this nonsense of drunk calling my exs coz honestly there are just not enough men in Nelspruit! LoL

I cannot justify the last statement but go figure!

Oh dear, I am so sleepy - It's a Monday 12H05 to be exact and all I want to do is dose off! Great.

> I met a few interesting characters this past weekend and I will just leave it at that.... I was quite an interesting one with lots of drama and this time it wasn't about ME! Heeeeeee

Gotz to go now.

I are alive! Yes I are...

2011-05-26T13:50:00.004+02:00

Wow, the last time I was on this space was about 11 months ago!

And..... you can close your mouth now, I aint dead yet! It would actually take a hell lot more than hot tempered bosses and shady boyfriend to get me to go 6feet under!

Firstly: I will tell you this one thing >>>; giving advice is easy, taking your own advice is something on another level all together! I say this because I, for the last 6 months have had this VERY bad habit of drunk-calling my ex - well one of them actually, at odd hours of the morning! Why I do this is totally beyond me as I am the first to stop a friend from drunk dialling. This was so serious that last weekend, I sat on the steps outside of Carisma (A cocktail lounge place) crying coz he wouldn't answer my calls. It must have been the most confused moment for the people that were around me at that time (approximately 3:45am - I don't understand why I deprive myself of sleep and stay up till this time hey. It happens almost every Friday hahahahaha - Shit I am a nut case!)

I must admit though that I was intoxicated (ladies don't get drunk). From a whole bottle of Merlot, to Gin & Tonic then Mojitos and Red Square Energisers -- I think I might have threw back a few tequila shots as well... I am not sure though! And no before you start judging me I am not an alcoholic. I just choose to get smashed on Friday nights. I really don't have anything else to do on those days, being single doesn't help either.

I'd rather be single then put up with dodgy acting male characters - That's just another story all together.

I should have came back to blogging a long time ago!

Alright, I need to go get lunch now. I'll be back *not in that Robocop voice though*

Howdi...........

2010-06-14T10:09:00.003+02:00

Am I the only person that feels just normal now that the world cup is finally here.

Personally I blame it on winter, it gets so cold that the thought of going to the Fan Park is just a naah ahh! I do not own anything warm...... I can walk into a shop with the intention of buying a jacket or jersey and will leave with a sleeveless top instead. Even back then I just used to wear Tumelo's jackets all coz I couldn't find a jacket that speaks to me!!!!

So because it'd be too cold for me to out, I chill indoors and watching soccer alone doesn't make much sense to me. I must admit though, many people are goin insane - almost every facebook status update is on soccer, flags on cars, the works and here I am with not even a Bafana shirt. But that does not in any way mean that I do not support our national team!

I was hoping for Ras Dumisani to redeem himself by singing the natonal anthem again - correctly this time though.......... oh well we can't always get what we want vele. lol.

What I want to do before my next birthday!

2010-03-26T08:13:00.003+02:00

1. Enter Big Brother Africa - I am so serious about this hey!

2. Go for advanced driving lessons @ Kyalami - I am a good driver though, just want to perfect it (hahahaha).

3. Go camping - tent and all. I do go to lodges with camping sites but have this fear of sleeping in the wilderness. Horror movies have removed all desire to go into the "woods".

4. Pursue that Online Magazine dream I've had for the last 5 years.

5. Have an arguement free conversation with my mother and actualy tell her everything.

6. Try out those Kulula/Shot Left holiday packages. I have a feeling that I might enjoy Knysna.

7. Mack on a guy. (Oh dear)

8. Pimp my ride - myself*** and - Yes, learn how to change a tyre.

9. Possibly leave Nelspruit - It's about time. Polokwane, Bloemfontein or Cape Town????

10. Introduce the concept of hugging in family.... I know that sounds strange but honestly my family is distant, the kids get along very well with each other while the grown folks have a somewhat cold feeling towards each other. No parent in our family has a good relationship with their own kids. Strange family I come from I tell ya.

Well, that's it! If I can atleast do 3 or a lil more of the above, I'll be almost satisfied!!!!

It's Friday! YaY.........

Tequila?

Yes!

And I need to relax!

I need RELATIONSHIP advice - pronto!

2010-03-10T15:49:00.002+02:00

It has taken me a whole year, yes a year get over him..... remember him, the one that rocked my boat 2007 - 2009! We had to good times and I believed he was my "soul mate" - bet you didn't think I believe in that huh????

So I have put myself out there - but damn I've had to be careful, with all those vulture and users out there.

I've "liked" 3 people since then and every time I thought of giving it a chance with them, I always found reasons not to. Some of the reasons wouldn't make much sense to you but yes, different strokes for different folks (whatever that was meant to justify). If the tables had to be turned on me, I'd probably flip like WTF but ke that is besides the point - what's important here is that I protect my heart and ego.

Apparently I am "cold hearted" too, hey I didn't know that till a few days ago when a friend and the supposed-to-be-new boyfriend went out to a club and I left him standing to go mingke with my peoples - we had just met the day before so naturally I didn't want to seem like I am the clingy type (That is my justification for my actions) and naye he knew a lot of people there so he wasn't totaly alone. Tumelo thought so as well, he said I didn't love him enough - or rather didn't show it enough. I don't know hey - I'm aquarian, go read my star sign and you'll understand why I am like that.

One thing for sure is that it does get lonely in singleville, especially when I call up my peoples and they all tell me that they are spending time with the partners!!!! *SMH*
I feel betrayed after I hang up the phone!

Yo, y'all tell mw now - HOW DO I GET HOOKED UP? and make it last, put aside all reservations and the thoughts of being heart broken????? Help a sitah will ya!

2010-03-05T10:29:00.002+02:00

Realy, there is absolutely nothing more interesting than the human life itself! - and I will not back that up with an explaination of why I think so... simply put - I am just sayin'.

And I do just want to bitch about my employer a lil' bit (hoping that she never discovers that I run this blog).

I swear it is like she wakes up in the morning and thinks "hmmmm, I wonder how can I f*ck Khensani's day today, nothing much just annoy and piss the isht outta her till she start spitting fire!?"

Wow.

On the brighter side of that, they say you are dead if no one thinks or talks about you!!!

Looking forward to an awesome weekend - yes!

Thank the gods VDay is over!!!

2010-02-22T13:21:00.002+02:00

Yes, it was just another Valentine's Day that was just like any other day to me - I have never gotten anything special on this particular date, so ya - I figure that it realy is not relevant to m e anymore. Better now that I am out of school and no one can FORCE me to wear Red and White, Red alone, or STAR White!

I am not bitter about it, no I am NOT.

Besides, I am one of those who wants gifts any other ordinary day and Valentine "the original one" is no relative of mine. Everyday should be valentine's day........ uh? No. We human beings are too selfish for that.... It's 2010 and we are still blaming the "recession" for being stingy!

To all those who believe in V.Day. Good luck - for next year!

This is a public Announcement............

2010-01-27T12:11:00.002+02:00

Yeah, now that I have your attention:

I just wanted to remind all of you that my birthday is coming up again (09 February 2009), I am not too picky so any type of present will be appreciated!!!!

I have also decided that I'll be 25 again this year, in fact, I plan on being 25 for the next 4 years.

Don't be shy to ask for my number and delivery address hey!!!!

***one would think that by now I would've have stopped being obsessed with my birthday***

That aint gonna happen mates!

Mcwaaah!

I'm a Millionaire.................. fok it, realy now!

2010-01-25T11:41:00.000+02:00

Stichting de Nationale SporttotalisatorLucky Day Lotto Nl.Laan van Hoornwijck 55,2289 DG Rijswijk-The NetherlandsKVK 41151075

Dear Sir/Madam,

We write to inform you that the results of the Netherlands LUCKY DAY LOTTO Promotion new year anniversary, held on 4th day of January, 2010 , have been released. Your email was attached to a ticket that won the lotto in the second category.

Therefore, a prize amount of One Million Dollars ($1.000.000.00) shall be your total payout after the official verification of your identity. The online cyber lotto draws was conducted from an exclusive list of 25,000.000.00 email addresses of individual and corporate bodies picked by an advanced automated random computer search from the Internet.

The sum has been awarded to your email address in our online randomly selected email. Hence you did not have to apply in any way or form for this participation,as it is strictly for email users around the world.

At this juncture, your payment will be made by our appointed claim agent, for the details of this notification, kindly send your complete Names, Address,Age, Occupation, Telephone Number and your country of origin to the accredited claim agent officer, Mr. Jan Peters (Director of Operation) M.A.M & Finance, via this email address: (mediterraneoamf@live.nl) or (jpetersnl@aim.com) for the processing of your prize.

Congratulations!!!

Yours Faithfully,Mrs. Nessen DelsinkPromotion Manager

Reply to: mediterraneoamf@live.nl

Realy? Are these people kidding me ~ ok here's another mail I received.... read on

2010-01-25T11:31:00.002+02:00

FROM THE DESK OF MR MOHAMMED
ALIREGIONAL MANAGER INTERNATIONAL COMMERCIAL BANK
KUMASI BRANCH GHANA.

Dear friend,My name is Mr Mohammed Ali, I am the regional manager of the International Commercial Bank kumasi branch Ghana. I got your information during my search through the Internet. I am 48years of age and married with 3 lovely kids.

It may interest you to hear that I am a man of PEACE and don't want problem, but i don't know how you will feel about this because you might feel that its scam yes there are many scam. but am telling you that this is real and you are not going to regret after doing this transaction with me.

I only hope we can assist each other. But If you don't want this business offer kindly forget it as I will not contact you again.I have packaged a financial transaction that will benefit both of us, as the regional manager of the International Commercial Bank; it is my duty to send in a financial report to my head office in the capital city Accra-Ghana at the end of each year. On the course of the last year 2008 end of year report, I discovered that my branch in which I am the manager made Three million seven hundred and fifty thousand dollar [$3, 750.000.00] which my head office are not aware of and will never be aware of. I have since place this fund on what we call SUSPENSE ACCOUNT without any beneficiary.

As an officer of the bank I cannot be directly connected to this money, so this informed my contacting you for us to work so that you can assist receive this money into your bank account for us to SHARE. While you will have 40% of the total fund.

Note there are practically no risk involved, it will be bank to bank transfer, all I need from you is to stand as the original depositor of this fund who made the deposit with our branch so that my Head office can order the transfer to your designated bank account.

If you accept this offer to work with me, I will appreciate it very much.As soon as I receive your response I will details you on how we can achieve it successfully.

I will want you to reply me through my private email address at (alimohammed1899@gmail.com)

Best RegardsMohammed Ali,

I just needed to share this.......

2010-01-12T11:20:00.000+02:00

Reporter:''Yini i-ANC ne IFP bangezwani''? Kubuza ireporter kuShenge.

Shenge:''ngizokuphendula mawuzophendula lembuzo ewu 3

Shenge:1.''yini amakaka enkomo?'

Reporter: ''ubulongwe'' kuphendula ireporter

Shenge: 2.yini amakaka enkukhu?

Reporter: ''isitibhili'' kusho ireporter

Shenge: 3.Ubani upresident wase Afganistan?

Reporter: 'angimazi'' yaphendula ireporter

Shenge: ''uyabona ke wazi amasimba nje kuphela ayikho into

engingayikhuluma nawe''

Welcome to the year of great things!

2010-01-11T13:11:00.003+02:00

Oh my, how long have we been waiting for 2010?

And now that it is here............................ nothing much has changed! Waaaah

I thought my imaginery empire would be up and running by now, I had a heck lot of other wishes for this year too!!!!

One thing for sure though - I am finaly going to do ME!

If no one suports on this, then fokof.... disown me vele, coz kusho ukuthi you do not want to see a smile on this chikita's face!!!

I missed blogging so much!

I am 26years this year and I feel way younger than I did last year - yes, I want to be forever young!!!

Hayi ke, let's see what great things we will all do this year!

Let's GO!

How sick is it for people to use the name of the Lord for corruption......

2009-12-28T10:20:00.004+02:00

DONATION FOR THE LORDFrom: Mrs Mercy Ufanga

PLEASE ENDEAVOUR TO USE IT FOR THE CHILDREN OF GOD.

I am the above name person from Sierra-Leone. I am married to Dr Johnson Ufanga who worked with Sierra Leonian Embassy in South Africa for nine years before he died in the year 2001. We were married for eleven years without a child. He died after a brief illness that lasted for only four days.

Before his death we were both born again Christians and we lived happilly. Since his death, I decided not to re-marry or get a child outside my matrimonial home which the Bible is really against. When my late husband was alive he secured $15Million (Fifteen Million U.S.Dollars) with financial institution here in Cote D'Ivoire. Presently, this money is still with the financial institution. Recently, my Doctor told me that from all the test conducted on my health, I am not going to last long, expecially, due to my cancer and stroke.

But what disturbs me most now is stroke. Having known my condition, I decided to donate this fund to churches or Christian individual that will utilize this money the way I am going to instruct. I want a church or individual that will use this money to fund churches, Orphanages and Widows. Also, the propagation of the work of God, building and maintaining the house of God through this money, is very important.

The Bible made us to understand that Blessed is the hand that giveth. I took this decision because I don't have any child that will inherit this money and my husband relatives are not Christians. I don?t want my husband's hard earned money to be misused by unbelievers, for their own selfish interest and in an ungodly manner. I am not afraid of death hence I know where I am going. I know that I am going to be in the bossom of the Lord. Exodus 14 VS 14 says that the lord will fight my case and I shall hold my peace.I don't need any telephone communication in this regard because of my health, and because of the presence of my husband's relatives around me sometimes.I don't want them to know about this development, but I know that With God all things are possible.

As soon as I receive your reply I shall give you the contact of the Financial institution in Ivory coast. I will also give you all information regarding the deposit of this money. I will also issue you a letter of authority that will empower you as the original- beneficiary of this fund. I want you and your church to always pray for me because God work in misterious ways. My happiness is that I lived a life of a worthy Christian. Who ever that wants to serve the Lord must serve him in spirit and truth. Please always be prayerful all through your life. Any delay in your reply will give me room in sourcing for a church or christian individual for this same purpose.. Please assure me that you will act accordingly as I stated herein. Hoping to hear from you soon.

Remain blessed in the name of the Lord.

Yours in Christ,Mrs Mercy Ufanga.

and there is more....

Dearest one,

How are you doing today? i hope all is well with you over there. Thank you for your kind concern towards me,my day is very boring over here in Dakar Senegal, in this camp we find it hard to go out because we are not allowed to do so, it's just like one staying in the prison and i hope by God's grace i will come out from here soon. i don't have any relatives now that i can go to, all my relatives ran away in the middle of the war, the only person i have now to complain to is Rev.

David Bamba who is the pastor of the Church of God Mission here in the camp. he has been very good to me since i came in here, i am using his office computer to send you mails. i am living in the girl's hostel because the camp has two hostels one for boys and the other for girls. our reverend Tel number is (+221-766-859-736) and his email address is (revdavidbamba@yahoo.com). if you call and tell him that you want to speak with me he will send for me in the girl's hostel and i will come to his office to speak with you.

As a refugee here i don't have any right or privilege to any thing be it money or whatever because it is against the law of this country. i want to go back to my studies because i only attended my first year before the tragic incident that lead to my being in this situation now took place. dear, please keep this secret within us because i would like you to know everything about me. i have my late father's statement of account and death certificate here with me which i will like to send to you to assist me acheive my dream, because when he was alive he deposited some amount of money in a leading bank in Europe which he used my name as the next of kin.

the amount in question is $5.7( Five Million Seven Hundred Thousand US Dollars)l will like you to assist me transfer this money to your account and you help me to get my traveling documents and air ticket to come over to meet with you. i can't withdraw the money myself due to my refugee situation here in this country. i want you to send me your contact information's such as

Your Names ............
Age .......................
Address .................
Telephone .............
Bank Info ..................

I got in touch with the bank and made them to know about my intentions to withdraw this money, i also got them aware of the death of my father and they have verified it with all their confirmation and verifications.

However, they advise me to get in touch with a very responsible person who will stand on my behalf as my trustee in regards to withdraw this money. since i am presently in refugee status over here and wouldn't be permitted to handle this amount of money.

I just have to let you know all about me so that you can assist me to acheive my future dream. i kept this secret out of people here in the camp, the only person that knows about it is Reverend David Bamba because he is like a father to me.my dear, i hope to hear from you soon..

yours forever,Evan.

<> as we carried on communicaing via email, I realised that this person is bull shitting me!!!

The 60's come to Nelspruit......... finally!

2009-10-28T07:24:00.003+02:00

Yes, finally something has come to liven up this dull town of ours.............. and for that I will not be spending money on a trek down to Mafikeng!!!!

I love Nelspruit, as dull as many people may like to think it is, hectic things happen here!!! We have it all I tell ya! It's like a mini Pretoria here. I always have fun though, I simply do me and people want to be a part of it and end up having as much fun as I am.

I hear that the organisers came across some glitches but I must say that they've hid that part very well from us - me in particular...... Since I am going back to events in a month I have to know who's trying to do what so I can scheme on how it can benefit me ans the company!!!

Can't wait to party like a rock star this whole weekend!!!! I have friends with very Diva like behaviour, one of them once decided to pour a whole bottle of Moet on herself ( and you know that, that bitter tasting Moet shit is abou R1600 at the club)!!!!

Next week is the Mpumalanga Hip-Hop Show - now that is my scene, I will be there noma kanjani.

Howdie mates.........

2009-10-26T14:56:00.002+02:00

I was told that I sometimes make people feel unloved because I get too self involved!!!!!

I think not but everybody is entitled to their own opinions - Even though I may not be too sure how exactly do they fit in this whole equation called "my life".

Oh I am so looking forward to being back full time................

I see BlaQ the Poetic Dreamer is back, now I have to re-recruit Uncle Kwaki and Bridget!!!!! They are missed dearly, don't you think???

Later

Most women actually live by this "motto"........

2009-10-26T10:34:00.001+02:00

My dramatic life as I know it!

2009-10-23T13:18:00.003+02:00

Not so long ago I was happy that I was quiting a job I had spent all my adult life at for a new one!!! One, that carried so much promise of growth and a few more thousands than what I was earning....................

And here I am wishing to sue the company for misleading me into believing that this could be my dream job, false promises and so on.

So here I am again, going back to the same entertainment industry that I tried running away from! Mncim.... 1 good think came out of it though, I went out into the world and learnt this and that about retail and with that have grown to respect people working behind the scenes ( like I am), there is ust so much work that goes into planning and pulling through a promotion on sensitive food products and keeping track on competition, the long hours, the crappy store managers and owners.

I had great days and very, very, bad ones that made me run to the loo to cry myself better.

Am now jotting down my resignation letter............. (my mother will flip when she hears this)! And come December, I will back at Ziyaphenduka - only this time, I will also be making my company work as yours trully has landed some delish deals for next year!!!!! Wow, am so relieved I could just break a tear!!!!!!!

Only glitch though is that I will now be working with an ex shag mate of mine that got hired shortly after I left for my not-so-green-pastures earlier on this year - and will possibly be neighbours with him!!!!!! Talk about complications.......... anyways, I will just have to deal with it and set ground rules!

1. What happened then (and two weeks ago) must not affect the working relationship.
2. Since we now have to keep things all so proffessional now, no more bonking like crazy monkeys.
3. We can do the whole " drinks after work" thing, but bear in mind that I am also attractive to other people so no jealous fits when I am beng macked on. LoL
4. am still thinking of more rules to set............ and also wondering how will I behave when his pregnant GF comes around and I am there - guilt written all over my face coz I know that I had been shagging her man like crazy!!!!! Oh my........ what is a girl to do?

My next post will have details of what I have been up to!

Howdie Bloggers.......... it has been a while!

2009-08-25T15:41:00.002+02:00

Wow, a lot of things are happening........... it's like I cannot keep up anymore!

Updates coming up soon + my other take on relationships (from expirience in the last few months)!

On this tip right here..........

2009-07-16T16:08:00.003+02:00

Life is some what weird and we are constantly trying to understand how other things came to be! Then you find friends that add more confusion to your life and some of those friends in their own confusion indirectly find a way to clarify yours!!!!!

I liked what my one friend (whom I may add - I had a crazy crush on and was perving on the whole weekend) said that we are winners by the time we are concieved coz out of the millions of sperm cells that came charging for that egg, we - you were the victorious one!!! Clearly there is nothing that we cannot do, we put ourselves down by second guessing ourselves when it comes to the dreams we have!

How often do we ask ourselves - how did that person over there make their millions and I cannot!!!!

Mina, on the other hand have night mares of people asking me why I am so afraid of what I can become..............

That question hits me everytime it crosses my mind and funny enough I still haven't done anything about it, instead I have opted to put myself in a frustrating position by getting an ordinary job that pays a salary that vanishes after a few days and have put myself at the mercy of other people - peaple that will decide when I must have my lunch break or what I should wear to work. Where I cannot leave work before 4pm unless I am sick.......................

That is utter BULLSHIT that I am trying to get away from.

I am now doing something about it!!!!!

Now........

on a lighter note -

This past weekend was one heack of a productive one for me and the boys~

3 video shoots in one weekend, a lot of hard work def went into it! We had Kliff & Vovo trying to do the "swagger" thing - Gosh......
Sdunkero Also did his thing with hot, hot, hot chicks ( I got a nasty look when I called them video hoes) ha, ha, ha! I partied so much, danced so much..........

There was couple drama at our flat.... that my friends is an interesting story but I have to ask permission to go ahead and post on it!

Cool dude - Reg Gie....... also came through last weekend!

Yoooo, still on that - Friday night saw me getting mega sloshed as I was stuck in the company of 3 couples on a love tip!!!!! So I did the only thing I could do, intoxicate myself - play DJ - and go out to chill with other single people like me!!!!! But I am told that I had too much love when I got to Kwassa Grill - Hugs and Kisses were my thing nje!!!!

And Just so you know - If you think God does not exist, then you are still sleeping............. how I get home from these parties sometimes is unbelievable - especially if I am side walking to my car!!!!!

Live life, love it and smile ~

Job, life and smiles!

2009-07-08T09:38:00.003+02:00

This girl here was never meant to work for other people.......... no, no, no! This open plan office thing is not working at all, infact waking up @ 5:30 to go to work everyday, wearing uniform and having to report to 3 other people is not where I pictured myself!!!!!!! I have known this forever but I thought that I would get used to it with time coz vele that is what is expected from us when we grow up!!!!

Yesterday, I was so frustrated that I refused to go into the office. There I was in the morning telling myself that I quit!!!!! But reality knocked me upside down when I realised that I was broke so I decided to hang on there till I get my "salary" and bonus, mnxim! This is what it comes to - me waiting for a salary!!!! Add to that, I do not want to become an industry whore - changing jobs every now and then, if I cannot stand working here than I believe it would be the same even if I did get another job and the set up was trhe same - I wouldn't be doing myself any justice! So I will suck it all up and making it work for me in the mean time! SPAR does have nice perks though.......

But....... things are looking up! On other issues of my life - Like me getting very good marks for my exams ( yes, we are talking 80+ %), now that was something for me to smile about.

My buddies are becoming hits about town and that is quite cool.

The new place is okay, like the set up very much except for the neighbours that choose to have parties on the nights I choose not to go out on.

Still no luck on the "spouse" department - ha, ha, ha!

Imagine me telling every friend that they need to find me a spouse soon - My mom is asking questions and suspecting that I might be lesbian!!!!

That's me.............. so what have ya'll been up to?

Reasons why Cape Coloured People Pull Out their Teeth......... Shoooo~!

2009-07-02T15:29:00.003+02:00

Geraldine (23) Cape Flats
"I was twelve years old when I got my four front teeth pulled out because all my friends did so. I told the dentist it hurt when I ate ice cream. That wasn't true of course but if you tell the dentist it is for fashion you have to pay. It was the biggest mistake I've ever made because there was nothing wrong with my teeth and I can't get them back."

Martha (30) Simons Town
"Friends told me the kissing was much better that is why I pulled them out. Apparently you feel each others tongue better but I'm still not convinced about the advantage of that. A dentist from overseas pulled them out for free. I told her I had a bad toothache, I didn't dare to tell her I was curious about the kissing thing."

Samuel (31) Fish Hoek
"Two years ago I pulled them out. I did it myself. It is a fashion statement, many of my friends did it before for the same reason. It hurt a lot but I think it looks cool so the pain was definitely worth it. I want people to see I'm colored, the missing teeth prove who I am. My grandfather was a fisherman and pulled them out because he could whistle much louder without these teeth, which is useful out on the sea."

Damian (27) Ocean View"I took all my upper teeth out and want to get rid of the others as well. I'll do it step by step because it is quite expensive at the private clinic where go to. But I want a guarantee that it will be done properly. I want to put gold in my mouth because gold looks cool. But I don't have the money yet so for now I live without upper teeth, which doesn't look bad I think. People like my smile."

Nitl (32) Ocean View
"I was ten when I pulled them out. My brother told me to do so, I didn't know why at the time. Now I know it is fashionable all over Cape Town and it tells who you are. But, most importantly, the kissing is much better, my girlfriend likes it a lot. It is great to feel each others palate."

Tuan (25) Fish Hoek
"I think I have a better smile without my front teeth. I pulled them out a year ago. I should have done it earlier. My friends and family did it as well, their smiles are much nicer. I would like at least one gold tooth but that is going to cost me R600, I don't have the money yet."

Tanya (33) Calk Bay
"I pulled them out for my husband, he loves my 'passion gap'. He thinks the kissing is better, besides that he can't think of getting a bjob from a woman with front teeth. I think it spoils your face though, my nose dropped a little bit. I bought false teeth but lost them while swimming in the sea. If my daughter wants to pull her teeth out, I wouldn't let her, for sure."

Marcellino (16) Calk Bay
"All my friends did it. It is cool! Now I'm saving money for some gold teeth, which would be even cooler. Unfortunately they are very expensive. My parents couldn't be bothered. They asked me why I pulled them out, I told them it looks cool and it shows who I am. All my friends agree, fortunately so does my girlfriend."

Lindsay (35) Retreat
"One of the reasons for me was the better French kissing. I don't regret it at all. There is no doubt about it, it is much better this way. My girlfriend did it recently as well, we enjoy kissing even more. Besides that it is a fashion statement. All my friends pulled out their front teeth. It is a normal thing to do for us and it shows who you are. That is important to me

2009-06-22T16:43:00.002+02:00

It has been a long time........... not sure how much I have missed here but I am hoping to catch up soon!!!!

The move to the new place was good and I have gotten used to the place! I have my last exam on Friday.............. lord it has been a while, after I am done with that I will be free~!!!

Having a housemate - a female one is interesting ( and that is all I am willing to say), I still am a floating female who is too picky to get hooked up with just any dude (ngiyinkinga) and work...... Oh, it has been tough but you know in some way this is like school for me..... I learn then make a few mistakes then get taken to management to be disciplined (not that when I do perfect work, no one says anything) atleast at school one got a gold star for good work!

I am grown these days - having sober Friday nights indoors alone with a nice, hot beverage and movies! Trust me, I can brave the cold if I realy want to go out but lately - it's like why, why should I?

Everyday I realise who my true friends really are........ and who are pretending to be and this has been realy interesting - the lengths that people go to, always saying the right things and when I fuck up they just keep quiet!!!!! Not that I do fuck up but I test them by doing something stupid and all I get in return is a smile, my friends would cuss the isht out of me!

And ya, I think I have said this before but being nice to other people definitely does give them wrong expectations or I lead them on or the read too much into my being nice - either way, I now have a new stalker................... I think this is the seventh guy to stalk me!!!! Creepy, very creepy of course someone in my position might actually like the attention but not this cookie, no, no ,no!

I will be back sooner than soon!

Family.........

2009-05-28T12:02:00.003+02:00

Being part of a family yama " choice assorted" aint easy coz in a way it meant that we are different (in a lot of ways) and we're siblings at the same time...........

Today, I am smiling. Simply because I finaly get along very well with my brothers and sisters...... I am still the darkest out of the whole lot though ha,ha,ha! To think that used to bother me so much so that I more than once thought that I was adopted.

We're a cool bunch though (yet again) I'm the "strange" one with sudden outbursts of statements that few people understand!!!!

BTW.....

R.I.P to Goody's mom - the woman who gave birth to one of the most talented and creative writers I know!!!! Qina ndoda.

Oh well..........

2009-05-27T12:50:00.003+02:00

Great are the chances of being hated for saying exactly what is on your mind..... apparantly today is my day!

Now I sat and thought about this and you know what, I am ok with that! I mean what could be worse than hearing stories about you from people you don't know well and their source is someone you realy trust?

We see things differently and 4 me..... let me be punished then! I will never stop writing, especially about isht that involve me even in the tiniest way!!!

There, I've said it!

People...............

2009-05-26T15:11:00.001+02:00

Askies but I am moving houses and getting ready for my exams............ Will be back sooner than U expect it!!!!

Peace!

I just needed to get your opinion on this............ as MEN!

2009-05-20T11:41:00.002+02:00

A man wrote:
There is no decent man out there who has no girlfriend or at least a serious partner, even if he is a pedestrian. If he says so, he's lying. No man likes to be alone, even for a few seconds. The other reason is that men by their nature wants to be worked, as in having someone to call their own. They want to be "mothered", but in a different way from kids. They want to be pampered and cared for but not to be told what not to do or do (unlike children). What does a man want: just be there for him and don't judge or say: "I told you so". Love him unconditionally and still tell him you love him even if you know he cheated on you and you told him (every man cheats at some stage and if he is not a "serial killer" everywhere, why dump him and start from scratch as if there are better men). It could make him feel ashamed next time and be careful, if you speak to him with respect. If you want to tell him about his habits that you don't like, do it when you have calmed down and in a loving way. Not when you are angry.

Men are more afraid of being on their own more than women do. I have seen many ladies who have stayed without boyfriends for up to 12 months or more and not seeing anyone, but a guy will find a new girlfriend the very day he drops you. In fact, by the time he confirms the relationship is over, he already has someone in the picture. Men always have a large supply of women to choose from and most of the time, some ladies even try all the tricks in the book to trap a man, especially when they reach that worrisome age 26 or so: By this time, If you don't have a steady boyfriend who might marry you, you might probably be in deep trouble because most guys who will come to you will be just be interested in having fun with you and go. In fact, they could be looking for people younger than you instead.

Guys have programmed themselves to do the following: the lady he calls "Umfazi" is the woman he thinks he might marry if it comes to a push and his mother is starting to complain that he is getting too old to look after himself. That's the lady he will confess to being in love with. Men usually love two women at a time but they don't see any problem with having more "nyatsis" on the side (it's something that you ladies can never get men to stop). "Umfazi" is the woman he will fight for if she is "tampered with". And he usually doesn't mind doing things for her or taking her out every now and then. In other words, she is a future "investment". If any man takes her from him, he could easily get killed. The woman he calls "Umuntu Wami" is the one who satisfies his egoistic and sexual urges. You will see that because he normally doesn't have enough time to see her because he is always "busy" or going to a "function". She is the "nyatsi" and in 99% of the cases, she will always remain one and will never take the number one spot occupied by the "Mfazi" unless a miracle happens. In fact, no "nyatsi" will become a "Umfazi" because if you can become his "nyatsi" then you are probably also somebody else's "nyatsi" besides him.
Ask most guys why they want to get married and they will tell you they are tired of cleaning after themselves or cooking after themselves. Every man needs a woman who will look after him and if you are not prepared to play the wifey role, he will eventually replace you on the number one position with someone who treats him like a king. Men are also very choosy and even more than women. The woman he met at a party will most likely stay that to him: a fun woman. No sensible man is prepared to marry a woman who was being driven around to parties by various guys. You would be lucky if he doesn't know your history. To a man. A history counts. That's why if you think you aspire to get married one day, I advise you to stay away from this lifestyle of being known as a "party animal". Men don't respect such a woman. If you met him at a party, he will never forget that. That's why he might always remind you about the past and want to know how many guys you slept with that you met at parties.

The key to keeping a man is to be accommodating and not be judgemental. If a man is impressed with the way you treat him, he will never leave you. In fact, if he goes away, he will come back running. Most ladies out there don't know how to treat a man. Don't keep reminding a man about the affairs he has had or that he has. Even if you hear rumours try to stay away from people who say them to you because they could be the route to destroying the relationship. How do you know if they are not just jealous of your relationship? Be open with a man and strict but don't judge him. Don't keep reminding him of past mistakes but make him feel that you are the best thing that ever happened to him.

The reason why men date a woman for 6 years and go marry someone new? It's simple: Most probably, you have become a burden because you lost something along the way. There must be a reason. All men want to marry a reliable and respectful woman. Every man knows there's no such thing as a perfect woman. But if you get into a relationship and behave like you are already married to him and dictating terms to him, he will eventually leave. The reason why he will marry someone new is that the time for getting married has come and he can't wait anymore. So he will take what is available and most attractive to him than marry the woman he was with for the past 6 years or so.

Men want comfort and security just like women. He wants the woman he will marry to be fun to be with and not always complaining. Why is it that most ladies start to look like domestic workers the moment they are in a steady relationship? You used to dress up for him the moment you started dating. Your weight was acceptable and you didn't complain much. The man fell in love with that picture of his "dream woman" who is almost angelic. And now, after 3 years of being together, you start feeling like "Mrs Right" and you become the opposite of the woman he fell in love with and when you go out with him, you also start dressing like you are going to clean the outside toilet of someone's yard. You also start pushing him to marry you by always asking when he will marry you. What do you expect a man to do?

As for dating men who have other girlfriends and you are single or unattached. You can't avoid it. Muthu u waniwa kha munwe in the first place. The problem is that he might not be seriously looking for a partner in you and he's just looking for a "stress reliever" . If so, some of the signs are that he will be very impatient with you. He will pressurize you to meet his needs in return for no compromise. If he has time for you in the beginning and the next thing he starts having excuses, you know what to expect. He will never change. With experience, you will come to know the difference between a man who is just playing and one who is serious. The problem with ladies is that they see the warning signs and hang in there just hoping the signs are either wrong or will go away.

Relationships are a gamble. You shouldn't put more efforts than is needed to make a decent relationship work. You must know when to stay and when to run for your life. Don't waste time on something that is not improving. Hanging around with a man who is looking elsewhere will stop you from finding someone who will eventually marry you. Most relationships start the same: they are wonderful. Whether it continues like that is another story which you need to pay good attention to. Stay awake

Darn it... I can't help wanting to talk about me and the somewhat crazy isht that happens in this my life!

2009-05-15T13:17:00.001+02:00

I really don't know what is worse.....

Me being told that I am apparently in a porno-video made by some strange dudes in Nelspruit. At first I thought bullshit coz I know for a fact that it doesn't exist. I have never been in any room besides News Cafe with them.

Now this is the shit that people go around telling to other people, some who may just be potential lovers/baby-daddy/hubby - who knows, but I must say that it is disturbing to hear such - especially when you are trying to enjoy a Sunday evening.

I am a sex starved female and there are such rumours are spreading like swine-flu! At a point I thought "oh, W.T.F I might as well be actually doing what they say I am doing" but fortunately my senses came back before I could dial up this hot, yummy gentleman that I have had very unholy thoughts of.

I am not that type of person, but being as misunderstood as I am..... who'll care to listen. I will chill with the hope that the truth will come out - somehow! Playing defensive all the time kinda looks foolish!

Then.......... there is a dude at work bugging me like crazy, the last thing I could evr do is shag a person I have to work with, awkwardness aint my thing!!!! Besides I'd have to think happy thought about another man to get me going!!!!

I am moving out of my 1 bed-flat, bye-bye freedom and roaming around in the nude!!!!

An ex of mine...... (check 2007 posts) recently contacted me after 2 years of silence and he wants to meet. Normally I would tell him to fuck-off but I chose to be nice this time. I feel sorry for the guy.... cosidering the way I ended it with him, shame.... the least he deserves is an answer! So I am taking him out for supper. Do ya'll think that is too much from my side?

I ask this coz I have noticed that when ex's sense that you might be having a problem, they'll "pity" you and you'll end up making out and that will lead him to this he was the best this to ever happen in your life,that you can't be without him...... you know such idiotic thoughts nje!!!!!

Hollar!

More on Mfundo............. and the Coke ad.

2009-05-12T13:02:00.001+02:00

Mfundo (who is behind the latest series of Coke adverts) has been busy this past week, finding out that Teko Modise and Mandla Masango will be helping out, that Coke will support him improving his advert, and that he has received so much support from South Africa as a whole. Not many 21 year-olds can say that they have been given such an amazing opportunity.

This said, Teko and Mandla did come in and help with the boys improving their moves and the result is absolutely hilarious. Both Teko and Mandla use unorthodox training methods, such as Pogo Sticks, and horns on a helmet, but these do seem to work. Take a look at Mpho’s encounter with Mandla ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fnKNk438zWM) and Titch’s experience with Teko ( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=L8yQ9ifhg4s). These will be aired throughout this week!

Ad's, Ho'z and Amadlozi....

2009-05-08T08:21:00.005+02:00

Oh what a busy week I've had.....

Almost had forgotten how I actually looked like, havin no time to look in the mirror properly and I missed coming in here dearly. So I am stealing a few minutes of my working time to update ya'll.

I had tons of issues to bitch about the entire week but I guess I got over them so I'm gon' be nice. talking about nice, I am actually a very nice person that tolerates the most f*cked up nonsense.

Like my one friend expecting to come to here rescue everytime she is bored but when I am the one who needs her company - she is either sleeping with the man or they want to have quality time. Yeah, I thought maybe I should understand as I do not have a man anymore.... but when shit goes wrong between her and her man, I have to be there!!!! Now do ya'll think that is fair in any way?????

This ia a person I have chilled with almost every weekend for 2 years then suddenly there was none of that. Haai......

On the tip of Men, the Lord I dig men but darn it there are just a few that know how to make one dislike them.

Take this dude that we were with at a party, he was cool in the beginning until we all (me, the girls and him) went to my place to drink some more and get some munchies. He went off and fell asleep on my couch, when I tried waking him up he said that he was much too drunk to drive back home and asked if he can just nap for a lil' bit. Me being me, I showed him the bedroom and he went. I took the girls home and when I came back, there the dude was sleeping naked on my bed......... It gets better..........he starts calling baby/sweety!!!! WTF

So I got into my tracksuite (PJ's are easy to take off) and slept with my legs crossed, it looked a bit stupid but hey, I wasn't about to let some old dude get me ( we have to do things the Khensy way). He tried all the stunts one can think off but I was just like "N*gga f*ck off and sleep or get the F*ck outta my house!!! He slept, in the morning he woke up to tell me that "amadlozi akhe angeke ajabule ngoba ulale eceleni komfazi wangameza lutho".

Now seriously which idoit buys that story?

He forgot his watch at my place so now I have to carry it evrywhere I go incase I bump into him, He is no longer welcomed at my place.

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On a diff tip.....

I saw Mfundo Mkhize's ad on the different channels this week, I must admit that the first time I saw it I didn't understand what the hell was going on..... I saw too many things at the same time. The more I saw it the better I sorta got the whole plot of it.

If I were to be asked what I thought about it, I'd say: Funny, def different from any ad I've ever seen!!! I haven't heard what other people think about it yet, it would interesting to hear other opinions afterall we all don't see think the same right?!?

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I have a new skeem, I am still trying to understand what the hell goes on in that chick's mind! She just goes with the flow - you know, the flow that I hate going with!!!! To the extend I saw her shagging 3 diff dudes in 1 weekend!!!! Yoh, that was just too deep baba. I mean wo does that in this day and age?????

So I avoided the heavy confrontation, ya'll know I was gon' tripp on her for her stunts but I am waiting to see if that will repeat itself, coz if it does I'll be on her case - even if she hates me for it..... I would have still said my piece!!!!

She's so pretty and smart, I do not undestand whay she does this coz I know it aint for money!!!

Now I know I am not exactly an angel here but dang man, sometimes one has to keep good, I'd hate to be known as a slut in a small town!!!!

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Enjoy the weekend!!!!

Something New........ and it is not about ME!

2009-04-30T10:17:00.004+02:00

Watch out for Mfundo and his ad in the next few days.

After reading this profile on him, I had one of those feelings I get when I see people who are passionate about what they do.... you know the feeling that I'm talking about mos????

Ya, the one that makes you feel proud to be young, black and gifted at this time and country. That same one that makes you want to get off your lazy ass and do it...... (it being what you've always wanted to do but was never quite sure how to go about it).

I will be updating you guys on him soon!

Am hoping for interview........ hint, hint (*_*)!

2009-04-24T07:11:00.002+02:00

Writing tests on a Saturday is the pits but I wanted to study part-time so I am dealing with it.

Ey, the voting went well.... except for minor issues like people getting there drunk and having out bursts of who everyone else should vote for, It was all good.

Yazi abantu mara.

I decided to have an early start to the day so I got to the office at 06H00. I never thought I could ever do that in my life. I've always seen myself as a "will not work for a boss" person but you know what things happen in life and you soon find yourself doing what you HAVE to do and not what you want to do!!!!

Took me being broke to figure that one out, if I had my way I would just do me for the rest of my life and tune people that I do not have to answer to them. Ha, ha, ha.........

Life is a sweet ass bitch sometimes and I love it anyways!

Enjoy your weekend my beautiful people!!!!

2009-04-21T13:46:00.003+02:00

This had to be the worst day at the work place 4 me....

But I will NOT let that mess up my year!!!

Funny thing happened over the weekend, One man was able to make me shut the hell up.

Story:

Obviously on Friday I did my "get smashed" thing, as I normally do...... I had an interesting night I say. I was told that I think "I am all that" as I refused to date some of the guys around Nelspruit, one dude even confessed to have been loving me "unconditionally" for the last three years! Yeah right........ I was more on some tip of "you gotta be kidding me".

The usual political debate took place (honestlt, people seem to think they sound smarter if they justify isht about the ANC. Not hating on the party but darn it, its every where - one cannot enjoy a night out with out ending the night with a Msholozi and Umkhonto wesizwe lecture from people who like to pretend like they were in the struggle).

"Can't I just get drunk in peace" was my final statement before deciding to head home!

Saturday Morning: I got a call from some dude I met when I was still with Ziyaphenduka Promotions, back in the day (Meaning, in November). He was at work and I was there to sign a contract, he saw me from far and decided to mack and my ass and pester the guy I came to meet to give him my number..... So he called ke and asked if he could come see me and I was like Ok, thinking that he can't possible drive all the way from Limpopo just to see lil' old me. Much to my surprise, the dude called me again as he drove pass Lydenburg and then I started to get worried. Here I was thinking " This man is sick". Anyways, we agreed that I would see him at around 18H00 and so I got ready and made myself look cute.

We went to Kwassa Grill right (same scene of the previous night debauchery I might add), the man rocked up there with his lil' brother and his friend from le lababuya khona. The friend was on some "where your hot friends at?" tip and I was like "Uhm, I don't have those.... as you can see I have a lot of male friends!" - The dude had no front teeth in front (it might be fashionable in the Cape but up here - that isht don't fly) and I didn't want to be blamed for anything, yes! People are that shallow!!!

Long story short: The man ran away and left me with a bill. How dodge can one be after claiming that they live a high life. Shooo!!!

I was pissed off!!!! No lies!!!!

2009-04-16T07:25:00.002+02:00

Sometimes I hate RnB songs........

They make me realise that I actually have never really been in love! Though sometimes I felt a bit of it. There have been times when I just felt like I loved my ex's as friends or brothers..... and then I would just call it quits in my head.

There is only 1 ex that I dumped, and for the rest...... I would just disappear on them, like move to a new place and avoid their calls until they give up. But the world is a small place so after a while I would bump into them and wish 4 a place to hide - I just didn't know what to say to them.

I'm almost sure that they thought "that evil biatch". Oh well........

So now I have R.Kelly's Looking for love song stuck in my head.

What is my take on relationships???

Will answer that soon!!!

The weekend I had..........

2009-04-15T16:22:00.003+02:00

I absolutely enjoyed my long weekend, except for the guilt of not going to church everything else was pretty much smooth.

Thursday night saw me meeting up with old friends and chilling at News for the usual getting smashed sessions. At about 2am Msholozi's supporters started singing those songs - that do NOT sound like happy songs at all- and started insulting a group of dudes in their 20's I think, telling them that they are amakwerekwere a Mugabe and that they should go back to where they come from...... funny story coz the dudes were born and bred in NST.

Then there were the old Madalas that want to revive their youth by shagging lil' kids, the drinks were flowing and I did not complain. From there I found myself waking up at a penthouse with a bottle of heineken in my hand and the way I was sleeping just showed that I wasn't about to give it up.

I went to the bathroom to wash my face and bumped to a naked man I last saw smoking a cigar in my car. I didn't ask questions..... but sure got answers and a he suggested that I move into the penthouse (a beautiful on at that) by month end!!!! My answer was no though I must admit.... I was tempted to say otherwise. What scared me was the voodoo isht that was around the place! HHa, we all know that abo darkie like using funny stuff at times.

Saturday, I went to Madumane's CD launch.... wasn't bad at all, I got a chance to catch up with a few friends and was a bitch shocked when one rocked up with a girl we all know has been a whore since high school. Now I didn't know that they had a thing going on until the chick accused me of wanting her man...... wait let me rewind that, I was standing by the bar counter waiting for my drinks when my friend came up and gave me a hug as we had not seen each other in a long time, dude lives in Jozi, then she came and I said hi to her as she stood next to him as well..... she mentioned something about shooters and I was like "yeah, actually let me get some" I asked the dude if he would like to have one and then the beef started.

I laughed coz I just did not see the reason for me to answer especially after the dude kept quiet. I just wanted to slap her there and then.... but one of my guy friends came to take me away....

I spent the rest of my weeekend at home.

This and that....

2009-04-07T10:19:00.003+02:00

This posting in a rush thing is really not working coz I hardly get time to fix typos or read what I wrote, but what can I say..... I need to invest in these 3G-do broad bands-en wat ook al that they advertise everywhere.

I am just old school like that, as in I still used my second pc that mom bought for me about 6years ago!!!

If I don't strangle myself before the end of the day, I'd be officially a very tolerant person, Jacaranda RM FM is getting on my nerves!!!! Reason - Lack of creativity I think, not to mention the very predictable song-line up. I have to listen to that thing every day at the office.

Back to me and my Gold-Mining lessons:

It is un-do-able, my "teacher" keeps pointing me at direction I will NOT take. I mean everybody that knows me would know that I cannot stand people who repeat your idea and pass it as their own to other people....... to sound smarter I think. Now on Friday, I was out doing my usual "Friday Intoxica-relaxation" thing with 2 friends and we were bouncing off ideas about a lot of things mainly music (they are about to drop albums - do look out for them), making money in a fun way, how certain companies market themselves, politricks and the sort.

Now this man in a beige suite and them long shoes and eaves drops on our conversation then way later on when coming back from the loo, I walked pass his table and heard him saying the exact things we were going on about.... then later he had the nerve to play flirty with me asking what I'm drinking and stuff!

Now the girl who is supposed to be "giving me lessons on how to catch gold mines" advises me to go with the "flow".

That was it for the night for me. She had to be drinking something that makes her see sense where there is none!!!! The guy was trying to get whatever he possibly can, others may have had fallen for that but not this biatch, she aint crazy like that!!!!

Anyways I have to go do what I get paid to do.

2009-04-06T14:10:00.002+02:00

While my "How to be a Gold-Digger" lessons are on a slow start, I had interesting things happening in my life. Not much life changing but interesting none the less!

On Sunday.... just yesterday that is, I decided to go to Lekazi (Kanyamazane - the township outside Nelspruit) (BTW, I used to live there at some stage of my life). I was with Pam and she had never seen my former home (I show anybody who cares to see) and I decided to go visit the lovely old lady that used to feed me coz I've always been lazy to make food and chew. My old time friend was there and was actually on her way to "besoek" her brother at the prison, I offered to take her there as this, for me, was going to be going to an excursion of some sort (LoL). We did things as per procedure then we went in in waited for the brother to be called and stuff.

While waiting, we had a chat - and she was teasing me about me not having a man or some isht similar to that and said that she would make it her personal mission to find me one - in PRISON. My thoughts were : Oh, hell to da NO! A rehabilitated criminal who has been sex starved for lawd knows how long and probably been mad a bitch by other prisoners!!!! Thanks but no Thanks....

Just then the brother came through..... we were on the other side of the glass and steel cage thing! Then there he was..... The very first guy I thought I loved in my life!!!! Dressed in orange overalls and looking pale, sad and just miserable. I couldn't contain myself.... I ran off and came back again, mouth wide open as I was still trying to understand how he went from being a sweet boy (who cheated on me coz I wouldn't give it up) to a man arrested for armed robbery??? It was just so weird!!!!

We had a short almost meaningless talk - I honestly didn't know what to say to him, I hadn't seen him in about 10years. He asked that I buy him a coke, I just gave him a R100 so he can do whatever with it...... I don't know what goes on in there. I just felt sorry for him and knowing his father.... he probably doesn't much visits from family or friends - he never had much of those (shy).

I just couldn't believe it, all I kept saying for the rest of that day was "Hawu, Usfiso nkosi yami".

He asked for my number and gave him a wrong one, I have no reason really for doing that except that I feared him in some way.

Wow, how people's lives change nje. Says a lot about the decision we make regarding our lives!!!

Hello people.

I'm being taught how to become a Gold Digger!

2009-03-31T07:25:00.003+02:00

Good Morninng world..........

Question:

What the hell happened to good, honest love???

I mean, have we (Women & Men) all become these opportunists that only love the people we can gain certain things from other than old simple love.

It is shocking to see the extremes that some people go to, to "bag" so called conquests. This is somethings that happens - race and age doesn't matter.

This bugs me as much as "going with the flow" does. You know when you can't tell a person that you love them coz "oh my word, it's too early for that, you just have to go with the flow", I've asked this before..... How many flows does one have to go with before normal relationship. What happened to that old school lovin that our folks used to tell us about?

It's true what "they" say about us never finding that love that people felf in their hearts, when people used to be willing to do anything for love.

We, at this day... decide on who to love. It must be a strategic decision they say!

You'll be bitch-slapped as a man telling a girl that all you have to offer is love! What the fcuk will love do for her at the end of the day? It won't feed her or get her a townhouse and a ride. If I were a man, I'd be on some "Bitch, go get a job and buy your own isht!".

I am a joke to my friends coz I always hook up with broke niggas and if there is a monied man interested, I just cannot bring myself to be on a "let's blow his money" tip. Angazi nje!

So a chick I've recently met - who claims to be the Ultimated gold digger, she says Khanyi Mbau aint got shit on her!!! ha, ha, anyways she has taken it upon herself to teach how not to hook up with (and I quote) "useless niggaz who can't do shit for you besides sending you texts with too much nyif-nyaf and tellin you that you're the best thing to ever happen to them!"

I will fill you in on how that works out!!!

Looking at the brighter side of isht!

2009-03-26T16:22:00.003+02:00

With all the bad things that have been happening to me........ I have decided to think positively about it.

I won't hate on a dude wearing a Manchester Tshirt (Dude who damaged my ride was wearing that), I will not do what most people do when they are single (shagging anything that walks just coz they can), I will not slack off at work (though it gets tough at times), and I will not talk badly about some people (even though they are idiots of note).

I am going to try and see the positive side of everything I find myself in, for instance..... they might have fcuked my my car but atleast I still have one, I didn't get hurt or I didn't run over a person or get into an accident.... I mean that's good right???? Even though I am spending a few thousands fixing my ride, the thing is.... I can always work harder to get more of them and the most positive part of that = I won't drink as much coz I will be too broke to afford booze!!! Now that (as much as I hate the thought of going for a weekend without an Amstel or Heineken) is good and healthy!!!!

I have a story to tell about a man on a mission @ the work place.......... But for now I have to go home!

Later!

2009-03-23T10:26:00.005+02:00

I need to get something out of my chest.........

Our SAPS sucks ass big time!

Why??????

This morning I woke up to find my neighbour trying to tackle some moron who was trying to break into my car. He fcuked up the door on the passanger side, he didn't get a chance to take anything though.

Not so long ago some idiot stole my radio and now this... it is just out of hand and now what pisses me off the most is that they are costing me a hell lot of money. I have to pay for every isht they damage on my baby. To top it of,they seem to be only interestet in my ride only. There was a Golf, Polo and Sting parked next to mine but no they want my Corsa-rtjie!!!!

Well then off I went to the police station after calling in and waiting for them to come. I went in and it was jus a horrid expirience (I hardly go to that place, especially to report crime) and the service was terrible.... not, it was worse than terrible.

how I wish I had a scanner right now so you could see the piece of paper they gave me as reference. Oh and it gets better..... the lady that was taking down the statement refused to answer some of my questions regarding their procedures when it comes to cases like mine and if the finger printing people could come do their thing.

All that was pretty useless so I gave up after they gave a piece of paper with the SAPS stamp and some OB number.

That was on Monday. I have been hectically busy and car-less since then but now I am sorted! Apart from the unexpected expense of fixing my car........ all is good,it's gon be a long month, a long and broken one I say.

I am trying to update ya'll on as much as I can so........

I have my first gig as a dj next week, I'm not good yet but you know what I hope to hook up those tunes once have the crowd there is sloshed.

I am so writing a letter to MP News on how crappy our police service is.

Askies for disappearing like that but you know how it is when you work for someone else!!! They say jump, U ask how high - Then pretend to be satisfied with your job when friends ask you how work is!!!! Life????

I've had 2 breakdowns recently!!!! Won't into too much detail though.

Hollar.

2009-03-11T10:08:00.002+02:00

Just so ya'll know...... they say I spend too much time on the "net", so I have to disappear for about a week or so!!! I have worked at a place where there are internet usage reports! Really, they have such here and it is darn frustrating, more so cos I cannot have a decent conversation with the people I work with.

But I am not going to bitch about that a lot. I promised to change and do less of that so here's to paying $ at a internet cafe so I can blog. yes, my phone is old like that, I can't do fokol on it.

Don't miss me too much!!!!

Later!

2009-03-05T10:27:00.002+02:00

I just had to let ya'll know about this 42year old man in a crisis.... I wouldn't call it a mid-life crisis but ya.

This is a man with the typically ideal life.... in theory that is.
2 kids - boy and girl that are doing quite well at school, into sports and have good morals. A wife, a beautiful wife, with a slim figure, always dressed to the nines, a job at the gvt complex (legislature), a smart home at a security complex, 2 luxury cars.

I mean, if you are like me and you are looking at that picture from far, you'd think wow! That is a nice family.

Well problem is the man is confused to the last bit, he has had sex with a prostitute, with a tertiary kid, with a woman older than him and to a mo'f*cken fag.

(Do not ask me how I know this.... I am the goss-princess of Nelspruit, news just come to me... I just make sure how true they are.)

Ok, basically what I see here is a man who has it all but still feels incomplete or maybe there are more things to experience in life. That I haven't figured out that one yet.

Now I bumped to this man when I was doing my groceries and I just stood there staring at him as he went on about his business, he was actin too fag, more feminine than me (well, almost every one else is), but that was just too gross.

What was even worse was that he was wearing white linen pants................. with a white man-thong that showed when bent down to take a chocolate by the pay-point. Urgh.... I deliberately stood behind him in the hope that he would say something in a manner that would confirm my suspicions about him being gay!!!!! "F*ck me.................. slowly" was what came out of my mouth - in a low, whispery tone, the man turned around and said: "Ooh, darling I prefer it being given to me". for a second I thought I had heard wrong and given the fact that my mind is in slow-mode after 16H30, it only registered while driving back to my place.

Now, men.... tell me, how the hell do you go from being a normal man with all of that to being a person that lives 2 lives. One = straight loving husband and father and the other = a gay man.

I know it is becoming normal these day but I still cannot get that in my mind.

Someone make me understand

I know I have dated a man who told me 7 months down the line that he was shagging men (reason why he never brought the sex issue during our "relationship") and that he wasn't planning on stopping anytime soon as he was getting a lot of benefits in the process. Right, I was young then and had no thoughts of settling down and having kids and a proper home.

Now I am wondering if one will ever find a normal man when so many of them are choosing to get into same-sex relationships themselves.

There was a time a dated a woman for a whole year and even with that I still knew that it is something I def wouldn't want to do for the rest of my life... It doesn't make sense!

Madoda nashiya ubudoda benu nje, kwenzenjani???

Just nje.

2009-03-05T09:09:00.003+02:00

I'm not crazy I'm just a lil' unwell..... La, la, la,la.....

That would be the song that is playing in my head at the moment!!!

I have just fallen in love with music all over again, went through my old cd's.... I am telling you music knows how to make one feel on top if isht.

And big-up to the crew that stole condoms & birth control pills.... hope it was for a good reason! I'm here thinking maybe, just maybe they want to be safe.

Condoms - for the obvious reasons +
Birth-control pills - for incase the condom breaks!!! results = no aids and def no unwanted pregnancies.

I hope I'm right. I wouldn't want to watch another episode of cutting edge with people mixing weed with birth-control pills like how they did with the ARV pills.

Phuza Thursday a.k.a Thirsty Thursday!!!

Office politiks are the pits, I am looking for a new job. LoL!!!!

How crappy can our justice system be?????

2009-03-04T08:05:00.004+02:00

However Nqonde Balfour planned to justify the grounds which Shaik is released on is beyond me. Watched the interview on Morning Live (Yes people, I watch the news every morning, I just have selective memory when it comes to other issues).

Depression, Chest Pains and High Blood Pressure......... My Fcuckin black ass! Yeah I said it.

Why does this always happens in S.A, personally I think all three doctors, the minister and which ever judge got kick-backs.

How many days did Shaik spend at the actual prison cell like any other criminal out there???

As long as certain people still get special favours done for them, then the "justice system" is not really fair now is it.

If typical guy with a "not-so-good" background gets arrested for stealing R500 would be sentenced to 15years in jail, he would do his full time and if lucky get out on "good-behaviour" or some other reason but chances are that would happen after 5years.

Even if he fell ill, who would give a rats arse what happened, he is a criminal mos.

Imagine how the country would be if every criminal was release for being sick????

These "high-profile" people get away with everything.....

Jacky Selebi, Tony Yengeni, Zuma, Carl Niehaus, Shabbir, that drunk judge...... and that is just the few that come to mind right now.

Where is the fairness in that?

That is my 2c worth opinion.

Depression????? I still cannot get my head around that.... I bet every prisoner would naturally be depressed. He just misses the good life outside + with his millions accumalation so much interest, he sure as hell doesn't want to die not without spending it.

Nqonde couldn't even answer very straight forward questions......

2009-03-03T15:07:00.004+02:00

LMBAO, I think I have a similar problem..... It hasn't gotten to the point of total regret!

Some people do look more attractive when I've been drinking than on any other normal day!!!

Shibby, Shibby!!!

2009-03-03T11:16:00.003+02:00

I just couldn't help it!

It and 23year olds!

2009-03-03T09:58:00.002+02:00

Oh what a weekend, sometimes it was nice and sometimes it was not........

Sometimes I was smashed and sometimes I pretended to be sober.

Sometime I slept for an hour the most and sometimes I forced myself coz I knew that as soon as my phone rings I would not be able to resist the temptation of being debauched.

Sometimes I lied about being flat broke so everything I drank after the wine was on other people, news cafe is not exactly cheap you know.

Sometimes I think there is just something about the number 23..... the last 3 guys I have met are all 23. I am still considering if the cradle snatching deal is IT or not.
Naturally men are ........... saying dumb would be an insult to the few intelligent ones I know.... but you know what I mean. J is really hot though and T has a tiny dick (don't ask how I know, I just do - all the signs are there). so ya, that's I am busy with.

Ooh, Ooh... on of my neighbours has a crush on me (sweet) but he is my neighbour + short and chubby = I assume a very young "willy" as well. I am sorry but I cannot move from explosive sex to a small dick that can't even last longer than 3minutes, I just cannot!!!!

I feel so dirty writing about this and all, especially coz I am at work, which means that I am obviously thinking about it while supposed to be working. Oh dear..... and all (I mean all) the guys I work with are not it.

Ok....

.......aren't I glad Feb is finaly over?!?!

2009-02-27T12:21:00.003+02:00

Yup, it's a Friday again and I wish I can stick to my decision to stay in the whole weekend. I don't think I am in the mood of explaining to every second person who says "hi, when is man?" what actually happened coz really...... this is not one of those stories you tell to everyone (unless that person reads my blog).

I've interesting thoughts goin through my head... and one in particular got me laughing till my tummy ached. I can't remember which year it was but I its on my previous posts here. Well anyways, It was me and the "I am abstaining from sex" period!!!! I lost the plot after I could not contain myself anymore........ and now (coz I am with no man), am going to attempt sticking to that, till I get back on the field you know!

See, if I start doin the dirty with a random dude that I am not in a "thing" with.... then he sucks @ it, I'll probably do another one just to be sure if it was me or him who cannot do the deed.

Being known as a whore in Nelspruit is not exactly good (small towns and the way word spreads like wild fires). Now I am really trying to avoid that.......... I have absolutely have no desire to shag any of my past "lovers" and there aren't a lot of men that I find attractive in this place.

So ya that is my story!!!

Lesbians????????

Hmmmm, an interesting thought it is I say. Will def update on that should I find myself caught in between choosing dick over nanna or the other way around!!!!

Decisions!!!

2009-02-26T13:37:00.002+02:00

There comes a time in every persons life when they have to make certain decisions.......... and now it is my turn to do that (yet again)!

Since BF now ex-BF left for pursue his mission of destroying his life (pardon me 4 not understanding), and he owes me about R6000 or so.... I have decided to pawn his tv set!

That is the most valuable thing (except moi) that he has, I want my money.... Yes, I too had fallen for the belief that if you love someone (a broke someone) don't be ashamed to spend money on him, lend him some if he needs it and yes, invest in him if you see some potential somewhere there in betweeen now and the future!!!!

I wasn't complaining or anything and I did most of it coz I just wanted to.

He had made his own decision as well - That he is quitting his job @ the bank without talkin to me first!!! Ok, so coz of that he didn't get paid and him not being pain means that I am not getting my money - especially now that I really need it. He left me there to pay the rent of that place alone, I have 2 traffic fines to pay coz of him (yes, he was in a way responsible for them), I have our cleaner to pay..... lawd knows she did his washing as well. He also has a fridge that doesn't look shabby @ all and he still cannot give me anything by the end of next month, I will pawn the damn thing..... hayi kabi!!!!!!!!

*******************now I will calm down & talk abt other things***********************

My toothless space is getting better or at least that is what I'd like to think. Had a beer last night, though the dentist told me not to, I just couldn't help it.

Later

My tooth!

2009-02-25T12:29:00.003+02:00

I had that annoying tooth taken out this morning and I am suffering for it. I keep telling myself that it'll better coz Atleast I won't have to keep shoving grand-pa down the hole or spend money getting Dentoforte tablets to keep the pain down every time I eat or drink something cold.... and I can't have that, ya'll know that there's nothing better than a cold beer....not even sex itself! LoL.

Anyhoo.... ya, I am hungry and depressed but I can't do anything about that now can I?

I need to find out what it is that makes me so afraid of needles.... I almost punched that dentist when he came at me with that syringe. Last week we had HIV tests @ work and it took me 10minutes, running around and begging then not to kill me... then I got that small prick...

I thought I had stories to tell but not.... maybe if I feel a little better I'll think of one.

For now though the left pert of my face is just numb and I am hating it for making me look as if I am angry (angry people are ugly) when I am not. Urgh and that taste of blood in my mouth, isht, as if being on my period wasn't enough to make me gag!

W/End of debauchery!

2009-02-23T15:28:00.003+02:00

Another boring day at work, retail business is the pits I tell ya!!!

That would be the reason I will be lookin for a new job close to the end of the year!

Weekend - Pure debauchery, I just can't explain it!

Black coffee rules the decks hands down!!!

Ringo = Slowly losing his touch, maybe it's an age thing..... hmmmm

Went to an ANC party as well as the MP Premier's party..... it was so, so but u know what when one starts down alcohol that one cannot afford on a normal day then trust me when I say that one might just forget just how boring the party might be at that time. I have selective memory (by choice)... I think I danced (how embarrassing), and flirted with a 23year old now that is just not on!!!!

Anyhoo, we cool like that now!

Later!

Woza Weekend............

2009-02-20T09:14:00.002+02:00

Oh yes, oh yes, oh yes!!!

'Tis the weekend and I am so looking forward to chillin and doing absolutely nothing! I have class in the morning and that is it!!!

How i wish time would just race by so I can go tidy up my bedroom before lazying around!!! Did I mention that I am now single again??? Well I am, but I'm not too sure if I am looking for "someone", maybe some odd-ish company now and then to take me out for lunch, supper or drinks.... definitely not breakfast! I can't be doing breakfast with people so soon, it
s very dodgy!!!

I haven't spoken to BF or should I say exBF in a while and that should be good especially if I am to cut him out of my life for good!

Me friend think that it's a bad idea to dump him 'coz he might just go crazy and that will make things more difficult for him, with what ever that is going on in his life...... I think that is obsessive behaviour (gosh, I hope that makes sense). And some have fears that he will kill both me and who ever I'll decide to go out with when he finds out that I have been creepin..... I think he should just get the fcuk over it.

I see no future for us and if he ever decides to return to Nelspruit, I will ask for a transfer and go back to Durban!

Happy weekend peeps!!!!

FB Shit!

2009-02-18T12:45:00.002+02:00

Since the blocked access to facebook @ the work place, one has decided to get back to where it began. And so I shall return to being a blogger yet again.

Funny story - I have managed to sleep at my place for two days in a row, that is good considering that, that is actually the longest I have been in that house alone!!! And as I was talking with a friend saying that one should make themselves available now that they are officially single (I think), right then an ex phoned to ask where I was and if I would like to out for drinks on Friday......! Well, YES... duh!

for sure I want to go out, the sooner I get used to not having a BF the batter it will be to get over him and get to do other things that other normal female people do when the man is not around!!!!

He, the ex.... was the last person I wanted to hear from though! It didn't exactly end on a sweet note so I was a bit urgh when I was speaking to him.

Work is kinda okay today.... nothing hectic or anything to a similar effect.

So then I will wrap it here and hope to post again tomorrow!!!!

later!

Feb - What a tough month!!!

2009-02-16T14:47:00.003+02:00

This past week was probably the longest....... to date!

So as usual I Will just cut to the chase, the nitty gritties!!!!

My BF was possessed by demons... literally, I aint never seen shit like this.... mind you this was just after he went to some place thinking that he has a calling of becoming a sangoma (ya, like I would date one)!

But all of that was just disaster after disaster coz he got sick, mentally disturbed, all skinny and..... well I think you get the picture! So with that there came sleepless nights till I decided to go crash at a friends' place (I probably annoyed them to the core)! I just couldn't take not sleeping anymore, i kept dosing off at work and that cannot be good especially coz it is only my second month here.

The most interesting part had to be the time I got insulted by the bf's sister, accusing me of doing voodoo isht on the bf so that he would love me, imagine me using muti on a man..... like really now, I know how to get mine and muti is that last thing I'd ever consider using. Oooh, and apparently I got him into drugs..... now people ya'll know that he smoked weed when I met him.... (if u don't know, go read my 2007 posts).

That was just the ultimate..... as a result of her bullshit, I am dumping him..... imagine dating a man whose family thinks shit like that about you????? no fckin way!!!

Lat night, his folks came to get him and off he left for home..... he just needs to come get the rest of his isht so I can officially be back on the market..... and to think that people including me actually had hope for this relationship, thinking it was gon' last 4ever.... see now isht like that doesn't happen anymore and I was a believer. I am starting to hate talking about this so I'll just end this topic here.

On the other hand though............... nelspruit Groova Ngenkani has got to be one of the hottest things around nelspruit obviously!!!!!! the crew has be performing at most gigs and ya it is all good, this place has got talent and we def don't need to be in Jozi to see our stars shine!!!! I am obviously the manager - duh!!!!!

Work is getting better.... can't say much about the racist cows I have to deal with every now and then, I will sort them out though!!!

For those who had forgotten, it was my b'day on the 9th and I was turning "25", I have to admit that this was by far the worst b'day I've had coz of all the above mentioned isht. then came Valentine's day................................................. slept through out the day, I just couldn't take the madness anymore!!!!

Later!

2009-02-06T10:43:00.006+02:00

End of another week, can't say if it was good or bad!!!

A lot of strange things are happening... like seeing a grown man crying and stuff!!!! I moved into another place (not sure if I mentioned this the last time).

Anyways, my lil' brother has turned out to be the ultimate rebel in the family and my mother thought I was bad!!! Right now he' making me look like an angel.

I managed to get a new radio fitted in after some idiot decided to steal my other one. Funny thing though is that this person only took the radio and nothing else, i mean if I were given the opportunity to steal a car or something in it.... I would've taken full advantage. I'd run off with the radio (obviously), the wheels, the battery, the coins in the ashtray thing, the cd's, the mirrors and the steering wheel (realy).

So it is the weekend again and for once I realy plan to stay indoors..... would ya believe that since December Nelspruit has been happening every weekend, it's insane!!! The saying these days is "SigrOOva Ngenkani" - by DJ Sdunkero!!! So I might just find myself shaking what me momma gave moi!!!!

Hey Holy Nigga or do we have a different name for you this year???

2009-01-27T14:53:00.002+02:00

I know it has been eons since I have been here... Kasie kept asking me what was up........ well, it being a new year and all, this is what I have to tell ya'll:

I finally had the guts to quit the job that was frustrating me, I got a new one.... its great, I am moving house again but this time it's just me and him.

December was full of surprises too.... I realised that life sometimes gets boring when one gets older, but not everyday is a boring day though.

I also got engaged but I am not telling anyone, especially my family for fear of the boy being judged!!!!

I'm not sure if they actually allow us to blog during working ours so I'll leave it there for now..... Stef, kwaki and all my other beautiful peeps what have you guys been up to???

Do let me know!!!

Mcwaaah

This & that!

2008-11-25T13:11:00.004+02:00

Oh dear where do I start.....................

I am heavily stressed but I think I'll get over it, that the gods I am not suicidal freak coz by now I would hung myself already.

The past weekend was quite nice, had a braai and all..... got heavily mothered, you know in a relaxed type of way. The night before was crazy though.

And I have just realised that lately I only go home when he sun rises.... that is a clear sign that I have stayed out for too long.

There is a place called TJ10.... nice place to chill at - Problem: It is f*cken expensive, an amstel costs about R19 for a dumpie and since I like trying new things, I decided "Hey, lemme try some Grolsh", ya'll should've seen my face when the bar person asked for R32! Luckily there was some strange man who had been trying to talk to me whole night. Perfect time to start a conversation I though.

Oh, last Thursday.. off I went to Riverside Prestige Motor's official launch.... what a bore it was! In the papers this was the dealer that "has" Lambo's, Ferrari's, Rolls Royces, Bentley's u name it.... now guess how my face looked like when I realised that they only had 2 Porsche Carreiras and a Boxter 4s, a few beemers and 3 mercs. I mean really, what a waste of my event I said to one lady who looked way out of place. Ai, that was that.... I was there for an hour tops. (the food was disgusting so really).

Kwaki is coming to NST this week, how nice!

Ey, I am going back 2 school people.... that was a very tough decision that I'd had to make after deciding not to dump the BF.

Just a year full time, then part time! I don't know.... I hope I don't change my mind though! Education is good for one- (I've been trying to think positively about this).

Yeah!!!!

Coming back with more updates!!!

Murder on a Friday Morning!

2008-11-07T10:56:00.002+02:00

My eyes have seen many things but nothing like this........................

Story:
There is a cat next door, the cat's name is Hlanya (which means Mad), this cat is very mysterious like... with a bell thing hanging around its neck!

Ok so yesterday I saw it killing a bird, though I didn't take much note of it when it was happening. This morning I came across of what was left of the bird - pigeon to be exact... the insides was out, head almost detached from the body and feathers everywhere. I swept that away and threw the dead bird into the bushes.

Now just moments ago, I saw the same cat killing a lizard.... but here is the interesting part I actually stopped whatever I was doing at the time and looked closely as the cat tortured the sh*t out of this poor lizard.

iyooh! Like Hlanya kept chasing the lizard up and down, blocking it every time it tried to get away. Just went the lizard had found a place to hide - Hlanya went after it a bit the tail off. Then the chase started again with hlanya poking & biting the lizard every now and then.

It looked like hlanya was having fun while the lizard was probably screaming I don't wanna die like this.... so it was like a the lizard gave up on running and accepted that he was about to be eaten.

Ya'll should have seen the way that cat chowed down that lizard.......... now I am here staring (in a very weird manner) at this cat that has murdered something right in front of my eyes.

Well, Friday it is today, wonder what the weekend will bring with itself. The new joints that have opened up in Nelspruit are quite hot and happening so I might just get up to that!!!!

Have a fun one yall!!!!!!!

Traffic Fine!!!

2008-10-28T08:41:00.003+02:00

I was a bit late 4 work and I had to drop BF off at his work place first right.... so there I am driving towards a stop sign, I slagged down and checked if any cars were coming then I turned right just the this traffic officer pops up from behind a tree and stops me.

He asks 4 my license and tells me that he stopped me coz I "disregarded a stop sign".

Now I thought of telling him to go hang himself coz I felt that I was not too wrong, I kept quiet though. What I was thinking about at that time was that I had no shoes on, I always drive without shoes on - now if I remember clearly I think that also can get me a fine..... Hmmm

The dude gave me a R750 fine..... at this time of the month!!! I am so broke....

This officer was the same one that I thought was stalking me.... on Saturday, he was parked at a turn off to town and he stared at me, I didn't even have my seat-belt on, on Sunday I bumped into him at the west-end Spar and he said hi...... then later he was on duty again, I was driving 80 at a 60 zone and he didn't stop me but today, just coz I didn't come to a complete halt at a stop sign I get a ticket...... Me thinks that if I was alone in the car I would've gotten away with it.

He is mean.

Now I have been trying to make out what this guy wrote on this ticket and I cannot read it.... Can I argue that I do not even know why I am charged with this "offence"?

I guess I have to make way to the traffic dept to go negotiate to settle only half the amount.

Anyhoo.....

Back to work!!!

Update.....

2008-10-21T10:04:00.002+02:00

I haven't been here in a long, long time.......

I don't even know where to begin filling you in on what has been happening!

I almost got dumped the one time, but we are now cool and besides, if anyone should do the dumping it should be me I think.

I have chosen to lose touch with most "friends" coz I realised that they actually add no value whatsoever to my life, if anything they actually sponge off me. So I am done with that.

I already have 2 small dents on my automobile......

I am officially gatvol of living with the house mates I have..... they are messy, wasteful, stingy and messy, very messy... I cannot take it anymore. So me & man are on the look 4 a new place where we'll move in together, I don't know (am still thinking hard about that).

BF & I are almost a year old, seems like a very, very long time ago hey!!!! Maybe we'll do a lil something and invite all the haters that kept saying that we will never last more than 3weeks!!!!
I have to admit though, starting a relationship for scratch is not easy at all and I hope I do not have to do that again.

My momma & I are getting along very well, it is unbelievable..... and I actually miss my other brother, the one person I dislike the most in the family.... (see Kwaki, I do have a heart).

Bf has been gone for about a week and a half now, he is at his parent's house and all, I get so bored that I actually visit people who don't make sense all just to get away from these housemates of mine.

After accepting that the fuel price will never actually go down the way I'd like it to be, I have taken it upon myself to charge people money to take them to wherever they wanna go, eg: this past weekend I went to go see this chick and when I got to her place, she wanted to go to the mall and asked me if I could take her there, I said fine but I am low on gas so gimme 50bucks.! See, it works coz I also get to go to the mall and no need to add fuel from my own pocket!!!

It is a bit dodgy I know, but hey.... times are tough!!!!

Facebook if full of surprises hey, like this chick who posted pictures of herself on holiday with another woman's husband..... tjo, the fouls came out 99 and all I had to say was "Iyoh". really...

And I also have a friend who realy need to re-evaluate why he got married in the first place coz it seems like married life is not for him..... the chicks he is banging on the side, the late nite partying! When U get married and have kids those are the things that you sometimes have to sacrifice bro, There are little people lookin up to you now!!!

Anywho I should be the last person talking about this, seeing how I was once a woman he was cheating on his wife with....

Another ex-fling of mine who just by the way also got married, came to me saying something that sounded like he is in love with me............ I had to tell that one where to get off, really. What does he think I am..... the one who saved men who are frustrated in the marriages, WTF???

So well, I had to delete numbers quick coz those are definitely people who are going to cause problems between me and man.

Wow, so ya that is it for now but I shall be back with a follow-up on these and more stories!!!!

To all who missed me..... shame, askies... ek is nou terug!!!

2nd last day of the month.....

2008-09-29T14:51:00.003+02:00

Ok.....

Where do I begin (Just BTW I always go through this if I have stayed away 4 long)

Well...... I have bought a car (with the help of momma of coz, don't think I could have afforded one by myself),

I still haven't quit my job yet (I am so f*ckin pissed with myself, well maybe something better will come my way),

I was so sick last week.... gosh I even cried! And my boss kakked me out (as sick as I was, bastard has no heart),

BF & I are not exactly seeing eye to eye, so sad - especially coz I am not one to apologise if I feel that I am right & he is wrong!!!

Ulcer attacks are horrible.......... I've had about 4 of them and I have confessed my sins each time I was in pain - I really thought I was dying, all 4 times!

I missed a former friend's funeral, felt guilty for a while there but Jabagal will have to 4give me for missing her sisters funeral, If she had to hear the story that is,

It was Kwaki's B-day sometime last week....................... errrrr, we are stil gon' celebrate that!

Am so ready to move out of that house, I am done living with other people,...... gosh the habbits! Urhg.....

I promise to go back to eating a bit healthy..... but junk food is just so nice, yummmm!

S.A politics................ what can I say that has not been said already!!!!! God help our country, that is my cry right there.

WOW.........

Ok, will def be writing something 2morow!

Expectations...........

2008-09-09T10:37:00.002+02:00

This is post number 201.... would ya believe it!

I thought I was pregnant for a while there and secretly I was happy, most of all I was terrified of what my family would say when they find out.

Well today I woke up and "it" started, it was a few days late so we were quite convinced, to the extent that I actually stopped smoking & drinking for the 3 days I thought I was carrying something. BF was a bit disappointed, though he didn't say it. I could just see on his face when I told him it was a false alarm. Shame man, the guy was even starting to plan and so on.

Well, the better part is that we can start saving up and planning for a baby sometime in the future...... I on the other side am relieved coz I am about to start a new job and was worried about how being pregnant would affect my work and stuff.

He was hoping for a boy, like most men......

I will be changing my email addresses except for the yahoo and gmail, that is where I can be reached and so on. I hope that I will still find time to blog and isht!

Have a great on!

SpriNG

2008-08-26T11:10:00.004+02:00

I had one of the most interesting conversation with a stranger at a petrol station in Hazyview, it was short but interesting none the less...... A white man in his late 50's, dressed in his jeans and Ferrari branded leather jacket!

His wife was there of cause so ya'll can rule out the thought that I was flirt with the old man.

They were in a group, going for a breakfast drive in their red Ferrari's..............................

Ok, now I was on my way to Graskop and isht, so that is how I got to see them. 8 Red Hot Ferrari's....it was too nice!

I was going on asking him questions like what he does for a living, how many cars he had and isht!

Talk about extremely wealthy people who don't even bother going to work having made their millions eons ago!

Well.........

My life has been quiet and drama-free for some time now, till last night when a certain stalker decided to call me around 23H15. First this guy says he met me in Durban then he says no it was Cape Town! My gosh!!!! I seriously do not know how I get this right.... all these weird incidents just love me!

So anyhoo, BF got quiet pissed with this guy calling every now and then. I just closed my eyes and pretended to be sleeping.

It is spring day........ and it is windy, I was so sure I was literally going to get blown away - by the wind that is. I saw a veld fire spreading like crazy and just hopes that it doesn't come close to our place.

I think I should do the whole spring cleaning, change my room setting with curtains and all.... if only I wasn't this lazy! If it was not a Monday, I would consider splashing every second person I see with a bucket full of water but then I realised that I am 24years old and doing that sort of stuff is not for me anymore coz of the years that keep packing up on me! Why can't I just remain an overgrown baby????

Finding the correct car is not an easy job I tell ya, now that I can buy one... I cannot find one I like that will be within my budget. Oi, if I knew it so much hassle.

Happy Monday........ hope the rest of the week is cool.

New week! Better be a good one.....

2008-08-25T13:26:00.003+02:00

I would've thought that it being a Monday I would have lots to write about but Nope... that is not the case!

I guess with the years adding on and realising that you can't go back to being young ever again really gets one to live light..... safe in a way!

Lets face it for a person like me, it's a bit eerie. I've always been the black sheep of the family and the one that was expected to fuck up everything and now I realise that I am not half as bad as my folks see me!

Anyways.... being a goodie2shoes was never my plan but now it seems that I am not a rebel either! I am just a misunderstood weirdo that is quiet cool (so people say)!
Who would've thunk huh????

Ok so here it is for this past weekend~

Frankie (the cute miniature sausage dog that made my days) is no more... Some older & bigger dogs bit him to death, we just found his short legged body laying on the street like that. I think it is better when you take a dog to be put down rather than just finding it dead like that!
I am still trying to quit my job (LoL)
BF is seriously getting on my nerves to the extent that I just want out, last night was just the strangest..... my cuz calls around midnight askin what I'm up 2, so I told him nah, I'm sleeping and that he mustn't come over. Now BF has never met my cuz for some reason so he over reacted and demanding to know what's what. I just got ticked off coz by now he should know that I aint cheatin on his ass!
With that on Friday I bumped into my ex while we were at some after party... ex and I got to talking a bit and all that (No, we were not trying to get together again) so now BF keeps asking questions about him and isht. I told him all he should know.... that would be that we (ex & I) were just catching up, I am so done with him and we talk now and then!
His ex's call him and I do not bitch about it.......
Ok, while at this party thing, we got mugged, it was the funniest thing ever. Well I was scared for a while but quickly laughed it off, I did not lose a lot so f*ck it!
I am still lookin for a pre-owned car that I can buy...... It's either they are too costly or too old for me to buy!!!
The Finland guys that were at the Olympic are HOT. I didn't know Fin-like men were so gorgeous!
I am extremely disappointed with the SPRINGBOKS.... 2 games in a row! No!!! The loss to the All Blacks was embarrassing but understandable but losing to Australia is just not it!
The less I say about Bafana Bafana the better coz they really know how to piss the isht out of me! The second goal by Teko (I think) was beautiful though!
1 medal was all we got, a silver one at that.... WoW! We have to be laughing stock of the Olympics & the African continent! Bring back the Madiba magic please!!!
I was smashed in a proper manner last Friday! Was so proud when I woke up without a babalas.
I am hoping for a super week.
Cold Play, Katy Perry, Adele and the guys that do the song 'Leave out all the rest" totally rock!

Have a good one!

Happy Weekend my People!

2008-08-22T12:54:00.002+02:00

It's a Friday and I am feeling good..... compared to how crappy I was feeling last week!!!

So thought I should share this:

Ladies..... Do NOT go dating a guy that work at a bank unless he is the manager or works with investments etc coz consultants and tellers are broke!!!

This I say coz I know, BF is a something consultant at a bank and the man is not rolling in the dow as most people think. Basically they work with big figures, count them and advice millionaires how to spent/save their monies!!!

Well I hope that was helpful for those who thought.... "hmmm, I should marry a man that works for a bank"! oh, an gents, that goes for ya'll too - your GF might ask u 4 some $ around the 5th of the month as they get paid on the 20th of the month!!!

****so that is it for totally useless information for the week****

I am car hunting..... a 2nd hand car that is!

The one I wanted to get last week is no more..... owner got into an accident and the car was written off, the guy survived but then again that aint got isht to do with me,all I wanted was his car!!!

So ya, I am busy with that right now, I had to decide to get a ride as it seems I cannot do proper things without one. Every second post I see on the paper requires that you have one!!! I can't avoid al those costs forever!

Happy weekend!

***Ok, Holy N & Kasie, I will NOT go to a sangoma! I need me some Jesus***

* What is happening 2 me*

2008-08-19T08:10:00.003+02:00

I feel a bit weird...............

Like I'm in some soapie or drama, so for a lil' while I will just disappear till I am cool again!!!! It's so strange.... I've been wanting to end things with BF for the past 4 days but everytime I'm about to tell him to f*ck off, I feel like I'm in too much like with him!

Everybody else just seems to be pissin' the isht out of me ~

and I am not one to be easily irritated, that is why I am so worried.

(and no I are not Preggies so it can't be that)

IYOH!

Hmmmmmmm

Some one said I must go consult a sangoma as we believe somebody might be bewitching moi.... I didn't believe at first but black people have a way of making one believe all sorts of rubbish. So yeah... I'll be doin that (I will let ya'll know what "they" say).

Oi, ya'll heard about that satanic kid in Krugersdorp or somewhere close that murdered some kid with a sword, they say he was in black...... now that is some scary shit!!!

The only guy to win a medal (even though it's a silver) for S.A will be the talk of the country when he comes back I tell you..... what the hell is happening to our athletes in Beijing, I just do not get why they couldn't get even one bronze medal (atleast). Ryk..... what's up dude, thought you were the best swimmer the country had.

Anyhoo, I think I have a lot of other things to give me sleepless nights than thinkin about the olympic.

Am still undecided!

2008-08-14T09:00:00.004+02:00

Ok Thursday today...........

Am on a mission to get my momma to give me $ to deposit a skorokoro 4 myself as I now realise that I actually need one. Sucks really coz now everybody @ home will see that I still cannot do stuff 4 myself (it would have been a different case if I was getting paid the $ I deserve). SO now it is back to the begging and sucking up to the woman!!!

Ok, I now have to return the HR guy's call coz I was avoiding my phone the whole day yesterday!!! Yoh and I don't know what to say to him ~ "Errr, hi.... I'm returning a call I missed yesterday..... mmm, I am still trying to sort out my transport issue before I fax back the signed appointment letter." Hope he understands..... actually they are not even supposed to be begging my ass, surely they have other people that they can hire for the same job. Oh Gosh!!!

Am feeling a bit sick-ish, just a bit...... and I suspect I might have a slight case of diarrhoea! I love flavoured milk and yesterday I bought 12 of them in different flavours, too much dairy has never been good for anyone!

Before I forget~ Ya'll never believe what I found when I tried putting my hand down BF's pants.... a box of ganja/maryJane/weed whatever ya'll call it!!! Apparently he was hiding it while @ work! I just do not know what goes on in that man's mind!

Can't wait for the weekend, just wanna sit and enjoy movies.

Wanted is a good movie..... also finally watched Kung Fu Panda - 'twas great! Still haven't gotten a chance to do Hancock but I must soon!!!!

HeLP

2008-08-11T15:41:00.005+02:00

I'm supposed to be jumping up and down right now but I am not ~ It's a bit sad really!

I have just received my appointment letter from some company that wants to employ me.

Here is the story (for those who don't know what's going on):

I've been really frustrated in my current job, that would be the reason why I went out and applied for every job I thought I was fit for. There were good interviews and the bad one obviously.
My bosses were sometimes not very nice and I often felt like I could just quit but I didn't coz I needed the money.
The new job will start on the 1st September, they are offering me almost 2grand than what I am currently earning and 7% commission should I reach my target of R100 000 or more....... I could've settled for R500 difference, as long as I could just stop working here!
The problem now, however is that I don't know how to tell my bosses that I am leaving in a few weeks.
I need help.................... do advice on how I should approach them!

Ya ne!

I don't know why I am even thinking twice about this........... I mean everybody knows how shity my male boss treats me!!!

See what I said about me being too nice and tolerant??????

Like I feel bad coz I know I am irreplaceable (they just don't know it yet) and they will soon realise that they should've given me my raise when I asked for it!!!!

Hmmmm. I need to go think about this, it is a major decision for me! This was my first job, since I left tertiary ~ this is the only place I have worked, It's all I know.... !

Ok, I need some time alone!!!

Women's day, weekend and all and all!

2008-08-08T15:13:00.005+02:00

Women's day tomorrow..........

and I still haven't heard if we are having a week day off or not, it is a Friday and I am @ work!

Not nice @ all.

Moving on swiftly ----------------> I am NOT gon' bitch about anything today, figured that it'll make me look like a bitter person when in fact, I am the nicest person I know.... I promise you , I am probably one of the very few people that can actually tolerate all sorts of shit that people throw my way, and I do that with a smile!!!

Well, tomorrow was supposed to be date day.... meaning that BF is supposed to take me out on a date but guess what, I will be paying for ev'thing! See yesterday was his older brother's B'day and he bought him a huge gift leaving rather broke as he gets paid 10 days before moi.

That is really shity BUT he will pay for that one way or another...... oh he bought me another cute bag, quite costly too but hey I aint complaining!

Lots of events tomorrow

and I am not planning to attend any of them, its chill @ home or with cool friends and have normal fun, One requires that you look glamorous!

Finally gonna introduce BF to my momma as she will be visiting next week before she goes back to Dublin..... I'm not quite sure why I am doing this but ya I am. And no she will not be staying with us at the house, she sleep else where like a hotel or something.

I really hope all female people would enjoy their day tomorrow.... well actually enjoy the whole month. I wish I could say the entire year but that would be pushing it as we all know, It's not always smooth sailing. Well anyhoo

I am learning how to play a guitar in an attempt to serenade my man one of these day.... I need a professional to help me though, teaching myself isn't actually that effective as I think that everything I play is good (even when I can clearly hear that it aint the case)

BiTcHiNG - 2

2008-08-06T10:27:00.003+02:00

Why did I even bother coming in to work today????? Only the gawds know what goes on in this mind of mine!

I'm black, I should still be in bed right now............ free day off! And what do I do..........? No I must go to work, what if I get too much work to cover the following day blah, blah!!!! Dear me, why did I have to be so nice.

Oh well, there is BEEF in the house between the house mates! Its like me, BF and his brother against everyone else.

Reasons:

2 Cell phones have gone missing, one dude claims someone must have broken in.... which thief leaves all the really valuable stuff to go steal 2 cheap phone??? Duh
One says he is gatvol with us making noise on Friday nite..... now that is just stupid! It is a FRIDAY Night, WTF? After a long week, we just wanna come home relax, have a few beers while listening to music in a normal manner before we start going crazy all over town.
One complains that other people eat all his favourite food and so on.... well that is the same person that didn't put in money for groceries. Oh, he also wont eat the polony coz someone left it unclosed in the fridge????
The other one owes us half the rent from last month.
I, for the last 3 weeks have been using my own money to feed 4 men coz they were "broke", I didn't bitch about it...... till this morning when one guy said "oh I bought bread yesterday and now its almost finished"! How dare you bitch about bread when I have spent close to a thousand rands feeding your ass when you were broke ~ That was my answer.
We all agreed that on the 1st of every month we all pop out R1400 for rent & the rest of the things we pay for..... funny enough, when the time comes - people start acting stupid ans ask too many questions about how much we much actually pay.
Basically I've just lost my cool with them and am ready to move out and find a new place.... I'll still live with BF (Free massages, manis & pedis, he washes dishes and cleans).

So tonight I am meeting with our landlord so I can tune him whats what.

Oh and there is just too much gossiping going on in that house ~ just so you have to know I am not even part of it, its what you get when you put a black man that acts like a woman & a white man who hates his own kind in one room. So sickening!

Haai ke......

Since the 9th is on a Saturday.... when are we having a day off, Friday or Monday????

Hollar!

BiTcHiNG

2008-08-04T11:25:00.004+02:00

I've got so much bitching, I actually don't know where to start!

1. The first one has to go to my moody house mate, that dude is so moody you'd swear he was pmsing.... really, he's just actin like a bitch these days and I will confront him tonight. I took some time out to calm down coz I knew I was gon' say some hectic things had I spoken yesterday. To top that he still denies that he is gay, a straight man wouldn't do what he's doing!!!

2. Whe you going to publicise an event all over facebook, have banners & posters everywhere.... you better make sure you deliver what is promised!

Friday night BF & I went to La Kalabash VIP Lounge Launch........ that promised to be mother of all parties to date (in Nelspruit that is),
We were told to "Dress to Kill", "No entry if you do not look the part".... Bull shit, here is what I have to say: Sasco..... Blue Jeans & a white shirt witha KWV scarf is not dressing to kill, how the hell are we supposed to stick to the dress code if the organiser himself is wearing like he's going to the shops, oh and DARK SHADES AT NIGHT are NOT "IT", them so-called celebs you see on tv are not fashion icons, quit trying to be like them. That goes for you too Brian!
Please, the next time you invite people to a function........ warn them before hand that they are going to a Nigerian owned venue coz damnit those Naija brothers were all over the show pushing us from side to side!!!
Where the hell have ya'll seen a "VIP Lounge" with disgustingly dirty toilets that some of us had to run to the parking lot to go squat there (Trust me hygenically, the parking lot was safer than those toilets). Brown, smelly toilets... YUK. I saw some chick there pissing in the basin coz she couldn't stand going nto those toilets..... some other girl puked there too.
The welcome drinks were shity too..... one had a choice between cheap red wine or KWV whiskey that I swear tasted like brandy!
They ran out of Marzen Golds................................................... WTF?
Half the seats there were broken?????
The music was ok
Oh, next time.... make the dj's and artists feel welcomed, no free booze or atleast water for the DJ's.

3. Kliff ~ for your career's, please ditch those dancers you had on Friday....... they'll fuck up your stage act. Blue & Cream are their names!!! With stage names like that what would one have expected anyways.

4. Sdunkero ~ The one SAMA award you received didn't make you..... We did. Stop frotin and never 4get the ones who supported you before you became "it".

5. May my ex fling-shag buddy person please get over himself, you are not gawd gift to women, no you are NOT...... and stop askin me to but you a drink, aren't you supposed to be loaded??? You claimed you were!

6. I wish pretty girls would stop sellin themselves short, or being whores I don't know which one to use. At this day and age with aids being the way it is, girls shouln't be goin out looking to be laid by anyone who spents small change on them. That is so not fashionable, especially these students that leave rural areas comin here to study and end up being biatches! EuWW...

Ok then...... I think I am done for now but will be back!!!

Weekend!

2008-07-28T13:23:00.003+02:00

shoo where do I start???

Durbs was nice, chilled with the family.... Momma had a super braai for her b'day (You know how oldies do it)!

Aunts, cousins, nieces & nephews all came and danced like "merry" people half the night (I had no choice but to be sober the whole weekend)

Old stories were told as they reminisced on what a troublesome teenager I used to be.... wow!

Yo, my momma got down to old Whitney Houston tracks!

Wished I could've chilled there longer but no..... I had to be @ work!

I got to Nelspruit @ 4.50am by the way and @ 6 I had to wake up & get ready for work (wishing for a day off, yes, yes!)

BF had a blast this past weekend I hear.... hmmm Wonder what he got up to?

Oh I found myself waiting @ the park station for the 22h00 bus..... the one going to Maputo via Nelspruit... dear lord! My ass just froze away and as soon as I got into the bus, there was this funky smell... I have no idea how to explain that stink but it was just there and I had to grin & bear it for about 5 hours as the bus drove!

While waiting there I contacted a jozi hookup but he stood me up.... hmmm I wonder!!! Anyhoo 'twas good though!

I am so not trying to be funny or any other way but there is always that smell when I am standing next/ talking to a male person from Maputo hmmm - that just came to mind right now!

Movin on along...... I am tired, so tired that I actually just want to dose off and 16h30 is just so far away!

Did a bit of shopping too... oh how I love big malls!

Besides that nothing new really!

My male boss was at court today....... someone tell Mafikizolo's management that they are in shit with the law at Pilgrim's rest!!!! Seriously!

My boss was there coz he slapped their road manager...... well it turns out that they (Mafikizolo & crew) were all drunk (driver included), the assaulted some poor Indian man who happened to be carrying a lot of cellphones at the time & they... helped themselves to those phone! The cops there were patiently waiting for them and they were a no show - again!

Haai no

Anyways.... someone tell me how Indian people are able to eat such hot food? Better taste buds or glands, maybe chillies doesn't make them bond with the toilet seat & toilet paper??? That was just a random thought!

Happy Weekend People...

2008-07-24T16:02:00.003+02:00

I still cannot accept that I have to shag someone to get what I want.... hell no!

Mine's not made of gold.... but I am not giving it up just like that!!!!

Am I dumb for believing that I will get ahead using my brains and working hard? I mean really - I wouldn't wanna be known for sleeping my way to the top.... how will ever sleep at night???

You should see the old-hairy-disgusting men that want me to shag them in return I will get a nice high paying job.... but is that guaranteed???? How long will it take for other people to realise that I wasn't employed coz of qualifications or experience????

Anyways I was chilling to the people who always know what is going on in other peoples' lives, my gosh .... my jaw was on the floor!

Corruption & promiscuity will never stop in Mpumalanga - I see!

Sure it is true that there is nothing for mahala.... yup! Fortunately I am one of those people who refuse to be exploited and isht!

Question: What happened to most of the people who joined the MPower boat when the station was first introduced???? think Mash, Helen (Gosh I hope they do not read my blog or I'll be in shit). Still though... everybody else is talking about it so WTF???

Oh and I hope that some people stop acting smart when they actually steal other people's ideas , making them their own! They must stop being greedy and let the rest of us unknowns get a slice of the big cake.

Then you get the ones who like acting as if they are celebs when they are around normal people like us.... I only have one thing to say to them: "Stop acting like a big fish in this our tiny pond." Thank you very much.

Ok, enough about that....

I'm off to Durban tonight, it's been a while since I've gone home! Chilling with the family, sleeping in my old bed & covers! Yeah... am quite happy about that. Twas my momma's b-day yesterday, big braai on Saturday.

Oy, BF is pissed off that I was pissed off and I told him that I wasn't pissed coz of him, I was pissed coz I have the flu and I hate having the flu... oh and I got it from him just by the way!

Have a beautiful weekend!

Random thoughts...

2008-07-23T14:23:00.004+02:00

How I wish it was weekend already.....

I'm going to Durban, for a few reasons ~ See my momma, One World Festival, hook up with friends and get some of my old clothes to see if they still fit me!!! I am not sure about the last reason by WTH...

I also have the flu, for the second time this year and I got it from the BF....
I only get flu once a year and I am quite pissed that I got it again, I cannot stand being sick. The runny nose, phlem and sore throat just doesn't sit well with me!

I'm broke... yes I am but I am worried about it! Ever since I paid off all my accounts ~ Life is just a breeze! I don't owe anybody, I don't have monthly installments/insurance/petrol/car service that I have to pay for... wow! To top that off I just couldn't be bothered with getting a funeral cover or getting into these investment schemes and so on... simply coz I just do NOT give a rats arse what happens! I have no child to look after, the BF can sort himself out, besides I don't understand why I should put aside money that will be misused by other people when I am dead..... (sounds like crazy talk huh). So if I die soon, my momma will bury me - that I am sure about!

Ask me about this after I get knocked up or have a lil' Diva protege running around then maybe I'll consider getting into these savings/investments thing.

Anyhoo.... back to FB now!

MPower...... Auditions were KAK!

2008-07-21T13:18:00.003+02:00

Yup I said it, it is so not like me but hey someone has to say it!!!!

I know ya'll gonna think I am beefing coz I didn't make it but let me tell what went down anyways.......

First a huge hoo-haa is made about the event on Facebook, radio etc, it took place @ Riverside Mall right in front of Pick n Pay, Clicks and the other shops there - causing some sort congestion there. Basically everyone that walked passed, stood and watched as me & a hell lot of other people made idiots out of ourselves.

I mean couldn't they just make it somewhat private and relaxing.....

Think about it, while you are standing there trying to follow the poorly written script.... you have all kinds of people staring at you and probably analysing + gossiping about your accent or the way you are dressed ~ I swear that was so uncomfortable!

I assume they were trying to create a reality-type thing happening there but it was too noisy & there were just too many distractions period!

Anyways..... so there I am with Kliff & BF there, trying our "luck". Oy... first they tell Kliff that he sounds like community radio material!

Some girl went after him then it was my turn.....

Ya'll know that I am somewhat shy neh.... so there I was script in hand, hands and knees shaking like a mutther (that is how I get when I am nervous) reading through the damn thing when ~ just half way through it this guy Dave, who is apparently the programmes manager - decides to stop me and ask if I am chewing gum or something?.... I answered No, then he went to say that there was something wrong with my "speech" and that I was too laid back! Right then my mind just switched off and did not bother listening to what he had to say..... I just turned and walked away having not heard what the rest of the "JUDGES" had to say obviously.

After an hour's interval... they carried on with the auditions calling back the 13 people who had made it earlier on. This time they all had to say the exact same thing - (Ya I was still there giving Kliff some moral support).

Out of the 13 there were 4 black guys, 1 gay shim, 4 black chicks & 4 white chicks.... out of that number only 5 people went to the final. The 5 people included 1 guy, 1 shim, 3 white chicks!

Shocked about the outcome, I decided to ask questions and managed to gather the following:

1. This was just a publicity stunt....

2. They already know who they will employ as their next jock....

3. That person happens to be some white chick from around, that is what they were looking for all along....

Now I am asking why the hell are they wasting so much of the sponsor's (Vodacom) money, going to all these places ( Witbank, Nelspruit & Secunda)???

Me think it's because they are trying to get people to listen to their station.... which is quite difficult for some of us coz I personally think that they play kak music, discuss whack topic, have egomaniacs for jocks and not much originality/creativity is goin on there so on&on... I can bitch about this till dusk! It's like they are told what to say!

The one good thing though, is that the money is quite good.... which the draw card for me (I need to buy me a car ya'll)!

One of the judges was the guy that does the breakfast show, talk about a brother playa hatin on another.

Some have even called the station manager a puppet as he cannot even make decisions on behalf of the station - wow!

So ya, that was my weekend basically........

I still cannot believe I plucked up the courage to stand in front of people and " audition".... Auditions were not made for a person like, worse I hate being looked at so you can just imagine how terrified I was...... my nerves just got the better of me!

***Just by the way, this so not a racial thing... It's just way more than that***

2008-07-18T09:38:00.002+02:00

Thank the gods, 'tis Friday!

Have nothing planned and sleeping a bit longer than normal might just the highlight of it!

Oh, I have a problem..... I can't touch a car's door, pc screen, spoons and sometimes people! I am static, I think.

I am now tryin to figure out how I can put this so that I don't confuse you.... it feels like a slight electrocution and I can't take it anymore!

have a fab weekend!!!

the weekend I had....

2008-07-14T11:39:00.003+02:00

I cannot believe I was dancing with old women on Saturday, my gosh!

On Friday, I spent time with BF and had a quiet time as I did not know where the Ligwalagwala FM party was ~ as they said, they don't bother inviting me anywhere coz I keep myself locked up!!!! Well, It's actually called being in love and having other priorities besides braving the cold to get smashed and having strangers with huge egos all up in my business!!! Try having a hot bodied someone sleeping next to you.... then weigh your options!!!

On Saturday: Went to harass my former landlord for the money he owed me, R3000 is a lot of money especially if you as broke as I was. Hooked up with my chef friend who whipped up some delissshh food while we sipped our soberness away, went to the FNB basement party... it was horrible but I had fun nonetheless!!! Went to a fab dinner @ Orange.... had a fab time there aswell.

Sunday, I finally decided to clean my room after I woke up at about 15H00 -

BF tried giving me a homemade manicure....... it did NOT work out @ all, shame ~ at least he tried!

That is it for my weekend.

My momma is coming to South Africa this week..... yay! I miss the woman, even though she gets on my nerves sometimes, she's the only one I got!!!

Later

@@@@ no title realy!

2008-07-10T09:40:00.002+02:00

Have ya'll ever bought someone a rather expensive gift and they somehow didn't like it, well they'll pretend that they do but in actual fact they just loath it...............

Oh, I think that is the case with BF right now.... on Saturday, me feeling all generous and shit decided to buy the man some things, he has gotten me stuff before so I thought that maybe if I also got him something he'd be happy! My dear lord, I saw this look on his face that just said "What the fcuk were you thinking woman?" and did I mention that I spent a lot of money on those gifts?

Anyways so ya, that is that..... I was upset about it but now, I am cool. We are going to a "hobbo" party at his work place on Saturday - I am however still trying to cook up an excuse to miss it and I haven't been successful yet. I see, the only way I might win is if I suddenly get my period and start crying from the hectic cramps! Yuk.....

Did I tell you guys how annoying some of work buddies are?

Oh - another funny one: Abe, the midget-looking like friend we stay with is going out with Heidi.... the same girl that BF was macking on or dating (don't know the real story there) when we met. BF didn't look very impressed with that and now I am wondering WTF?????? More like - don't make me go crazy on you now? Abe also has a new hobby = macking on every available woman at the complex we live in.

It's Phuza Thursday today - trust Gareth Cliff to promote that on 5FM!!!

Weekend -

2008-07-07T09:58:00.003+02:00

This past weekend was just crazy.......

Hooked up with a few friends,
Downed beers,
Met a crazy chick who came down with a friend to Nelspruit for her B'day,
Made up with BF after hectic argument on Thursday,
Spent a lot of money on something, I just don't remember what exactly,
Attended some Miss Barberton shit thing - poorly organised, too many drunk people in one place has never been wise.
Got a flat tyre on Kliff's car
BF drank till he puked,
I danced like a white chick - no offence.......
Somehow managed to get my laundry done....
Realised how hot BF actually is...... strange that I had never noticed that before.
Had a serious shaggathon going on as well,
Harold & Kumar is the isht...

Ya, now am @ work (though I wish I wasn't)...... wearing something very floral (my washing had no dried in the morning). I have no idea where to start or what I should do today.

My one friend had a baby shower over the weekend, I couldn't make it but I had a cool chat with her over the phone.....

then it hit me.... again - my gosh I am growing older, almost everybody is getting older and doing what old people do and me, I still dress up the same way as I did when I was still a student, I talk funny isht, given the chance I play with kiddies stuff, play street soccer and do all the other isht I did back in the day. My hairstyle hasn't changed either, my tongue is still pierced...

I don't know why people change so much when they get to their mid/late 20's. they dress funny too.

Ah well, as shocked as I am - still, I cannot believe I haven't change much since those days and I am planning keeping things like that for a very, very log time - or maybe until I get kids.

Wednesday.....

2008-07-02T14:57:00.002+02:00

I totally bored the isht out of myself today..... that was not good! I have never been bored with myself coz I always think of something interesting! Who the fcuk is s'pposed to find me interesting if I, myself am not interested!!!! Seriously, I see trouble!

Am now avoiding all calls from unknown numbers as I, earlier on - cussed (in a vulgar manner) at the BF's ex.... the woman keeps sending him texts & calling him - Like.... they have nothing to talk about and definitely no going down memory lane.

This is so not like me but fcukit, she annoys me to the core.

Besides all that, all is still good @ my love land!

People are headed down to Durban for the July shindig... drive safely & have stax of fun! I personally think it is a waste of money and the fun is really enjoyed by the rich & famous, as they get vvip treatment while a normal Tom just go on ahead trying to fit in..... when they don't really care who the fcuck you are.

I on the other hand am planning on getting heavily smashed with Kwaki, BF, Kliffo'day & who ever that decides to join us!!!

Don't ya'll wish Bridget could update her blog.... I miss her!

Oh well, back to work!

Tuesday.....

2008-07-01T14:52:00.003+02:00

This past weekend was chilled out... later on I got to doing some dancing @ News Cafe, I regretted it in the morning but it wasn't half as bad as the hang over I had - it lasted the whole day! Jugermeester or some isht like that had something there and we got heavily smashed - BF was worse (remember it only takes 3 beers to get him drunk).

Ya'll should have seen him shaking things that should never shake on a striper-pole! I danced on it too - and fell a few times but who cares....

I couldn't eat, walk or watch tv.....

I spent like half my rent money so now I am in a sorry state.... but fcukit I'll get over it soon.

This week got off on a boring start, am hoping that it ends with a blast!!!

Kwaki is in Nelspruit.... yay! Planning on a serious debauchery nine9, on Saturday that is!!!!

So about the new job thing - they still want to employ me but only from October.... am thinking long & hard if I should for them or move on!!!!

Amy winehouse is full of shit.. or crack, either way she is a disgusting piece of trash with a very nice voice!!!!! She needs Jesus, immediately!

Wednesday~

2008-06-25T09:36:00.003+02:00

BF's parents are coming to visit next week.... for the whole fcukin week!!!

SAVE ME......

That is a desperate cry for help! Asseblief tog!

BF is so happy coz "It'll give them a chance to know you".... NOT, they are already complaining that we are sleeping in the same room! OMG when will I get a chance to smoke or drink beer.....

This is so not happening, I wish it doesn't.... ooh but BF is gon' be so disappointed, saw his face change when he told me that they (his parents) would be visiting.... I just froze and the first words out of my mount were ~ What, why, when, why oh god, I think I need to visit a friend!

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Moving on slowly......

Cats, I love cats for some reason they just interest me but because I am black I cannot have one as a pet for fear of being accused of practising witchcraft. It is so weird how black people are so supersticious.... as a teenager I wanted a monkey for a pet and my momma said NO, finish & klaar! "what do you want our neighbours to think???? I am not a witch and if we have a monkey staying with us, that is exactly what they will think"

Fcuk it man.....

SO as a results I grew up with no pets whatsoever.... there was that one dog a very long time a go but it tried biting me so it was clearly not my or our pet, a stray dog I think it was!

So BF wants a dog.... ok so I suggested that we get those miniature sausage dogs or chiwawa but no HE wants those big ass dogs..... my problem: they shit too much and I am terrified of them, they are so not cute!!!

Monday ~

2008-06-23T08:17:00.001+02:00

Oh wow........

Happy Monday......

Enjoy the week.......

I don't know what's up but I am in a happy mood, no doubt!

Happy weekend ~

2008-06-20T11:05:00.003+02:00

I stole this from Sweets........ Sue me, I'll hunt you down!

1. What is your first name?
… Khensani

2. What is your favorite food?
… Ocean Basket's Platter.... (hake, prawns, calamari, mussels etc)

3. What high school did you go to?
… Middleburg High then Hoerskool Bergvlam then Lowveld Christian School.... what???? I got expelled a few times.

4. What is your favorite color?
... Green, Yellow, Black - I have more than 1 fav. color!

5. Who is your celebrity crush?
… Jay Z - No, not Jacob Zuma, Josh Hartnet & Mathew (Failure to launch, yes that one)

6. What is your favorite drink?
… Water

7. What is your dream vacation?
… Anywhere I've never been to, @ someone Else's account ofcoz

8. What is your favorite dessert?
… Malva Pudding & Homemade custard

9. What do you want to be when you grow up?
… an extremely wealthy but unknown woman

10. What do you love most in life?
... Meself, duh!

11. What is one word that describes you?
… Oi

12. What is your blog name?
… Diva, there is no wow explanation to it really!

FriDay......Yay!

No plans, no,no but I am so gon' have fun.... even if it'll be just sleeping or watching movies!

Today was one of the most hectic ones at work - shooo, I didn't want to be me today!

Luckily.... I passed the test I wrote earlier on this week and I might be getting meself a new job that pays me at least 2grand more than what I am currently earning, it's not much but you'd be surprised to see how much that lil bit helps.

I would've taken any job, even if it payed me R100 more than my salary right now. The fact of the matter is that I want a new job, anywhere....as long as I don't work here anymore.

It sounds like I don't know what I wanna do with myself & career but honestly I have plans of owning something soon, still in process (don't wanna give too much details) and while I wait for that to take off, I wanna acquire as much knowledge, skills as needed from almost related fields, money and isht.

So ya....

Wish ya'll have a fab one!

Phuza Thursday ~ W-end almost here...

2008-06-19T11:48:00.003+02:00

Oi...

I have started doing tummy crunches and all that stupid nonsense with the hopes of becoming a summer bunny, bombshell, sexy thang later on this year.... let me tell that it aint easy, in fact it is pretty fucked up coz my tummy hurts and apparently that is a sign that my muscles are working.

So BF is helping me out! It's weird but fine I guess.

And we....I have been invited to their "Hobo" party sometime soon. I know it's coz they wanna look/analyse me and shit. They (his work buddies) only see me from very far and I have heard that they think I some sort of weirdo. I'll show them who's the weird one! BF made me promise not to try and drink everyone under the table (free booze)... I said I wouldn't but how the heck will I relax if I'm sober????

NO fair.

I still think that the Nelspruit SABC only employs people who have a high alcohol tolerance..... jyslik, almost everyone I know who works there has a passion for booze, some more than me! And I thought that was highly unlikely unless I would be competing with a drinker that desperately needs to attend AA meetings.

Anyhoo.... gots to go back to pleasing the humans that pay my salary.

Ooh it's 'Phuza Thursday" today... or "Thirsty Thursday" to some (SABC employees, sshhh...)

Planting weed to save for wine....

2008-06-18T13:44:00.003+02:00

oH wow....... it's rainy today. This weather makes me wanna sleep the whole day with breaks inbetween to go eat and then go back to the bed and do movies - romantic comedy maybe!

But

That is just me wishing.... I gotta work and money for my boss so he can buy another car this year!

Have I ever mentioned that I, just by the way... don't have one! I swear if I don't get one soon, I'll forget how to drive for real.

Anyways.... seems like no one has an overly interesting story to tell!

I have met people who are bull shit writers but really quiet people in person, I find that so strange! But then again, I guess that is the beauty of writing isht down that actually saying it like verbally...... some say it is verbal or oral vomit or some isht like that!

My BF smokes weed, and so I decided to plant him some. I mean it can't be illegal coz I won't be selling it, just growing it do that he can spent less on buying that stuff and invest in the wine collection I want so much... I can't brew my own alcohol but I can definitely plant some weed! Hope the police don't come check what I am doing there.... I have fears that my demented old tannie that leaves right next to us might rat me out. She's freaky always smiling and waving from her veranda. She's too nice in a weird kind of way, its suspicious!

Weekend - MonTuesday

2008-06-17T09:03:00.003+02:00

Before I reach my cap and all.....

Let me post something.

Weekend - Long.... felt longer than it really was, I drank drinks with alcohol in them but did not get sloshed.... Sleepy & bored is more like it.

Tried doing the whole partying thing and that did not work out either...

So I thought to myself... hmmmm maybe I'm outgrowing this whole love today like it is your last thing and gotten used to just chilling when I have free time.

I enjoyed curling up on the couch more than the club thing.... wow!

Yesterday BF was trying to get me to go out coz he feels that "it is his fault" that people say that I am hiding myself and am "out of the scene".... which scene they are talking about, I do not know. But yeah so, yesterday I eventually went along with some friends and saw very new faces to me, some loud and pretentious, some ok and some thinking what the hell happened to er (her being me)... as ya'll might have read already I don't do fashion, I do me... so there I was chubby and all, wearing something that looks like a sarong wrapped as a top, afro out, cargo shorts and a camo bag!!!

I could just see all those weired stares and carried on talkin as usual.

Sunday: a chef friend of ours decided to make potjie kos.... yummy!

I was so full I just wanted to pass out!

I almost fell from a moving 1400 bakkie.... we were sitting at the back (you do know how small that car is right) and I was sitting on a camp master chair at the back. I was having a lekker time chatting with buddies when the driver decided to drive faster and making a turn that made the chair tilt a bit, making me almost fall out of the car.... so the same people I was chilling with had to grab me by my legs and one arm to stop me from falling!

My ass was terrified.... I have since refused to get into another Nissan 1400 bakkie.

Askies for the driver coz I told him exactly what I thought of his driving and so on.

This Tuesday feels like a bloody Monday...... I sense that I am gon have a very bad week @ work, I am writing a test today, I am broke and waiting for month end, both my bosses are moody today - oh wow is me, what am I going to do?...

Have a great one!!!

Happy Long Weekend....

2008-06-13T07:58:00.003+02:00

I am so looking forward to relaxing this weekend....

It has been a long, tiring week for me (which is why I haven't been here so much).

This morning, I asked BF to put some fish fingers in oven, the man took the whole box of the think and chucked it in the oven - box and all!

Only when I started to check what funny smell was coming from the kitchen, I realised what he had done....

Dear God I said, what the f*ck was he thinking.... the whole kitchen was in smoke! Oh and on Wednesday, he decided that he was gon' make supper....

I wish he hadn't.....

Too much pepper and salt.... everything just looked brown, brown I tell ya! I love food with colour. Coz of the way that food was I was forced to have rusks & tea for supper.... of coz he ate his food, like there was nothing wrong with it.

June 16 is coming up and honestly lately the holiday for me has lost it's relevance, mostly coz for some it is just an extra day to get smashed and run amok. So I will spent the day catching up on my reading, I wished that there'd be some nice event goin on but haai, this is Nelspruit and the only events I know of is the government one and the "Back-to-School" party..... yup you have to be in a school uniform to get in.

I don't even have my old uniform with me anymore.... not sure if it would still fit me anyways.

Anyhooo.....

Hope ya'll have a supa rockas one!

Urgh tasting food....

2008-06-10T07:56:00.004+02:00

I don't care how healthy it might be but Fat Free & Skim milk sucks... it's has this horrible taste that is just urgh....

I don't know how "health conscious" people do it. Tuna in "water" - I love my tuna with the veggie oil thank you. Then there is the Slimmer's steak - I buy that but it is so dry.

Obviously no one wants to be overweight and have funny illnesses caused by having an unhealthy "diet" but damn.... the skinny people overdo it sometimes...

I know I never want to be skinny but I don't wanna be "obese" either.

Ya, I don't do too fatty foods - but slap chips are an exception....

I love my food and there is no way I will start eating tasteless things coz it's "healthy and fat free"... I make sure that it is just healthy enough for me, I cook it so ya I check the things I put into whatever I am making....

What happens in Vegas..... def does not stay in Vegas!

2008-06-09T12:20:00.005+02:00

I watched the movie: What happens in Vegas...... quite funny!

It was unplanned... the one minute we were going around looking for "lingerie" (apparently my underwear is not as sexy as I'd like to think it is, was.... whatever- ouch) the next thing we were paying for the movie tickets.

I hadn't done that in a while - mostly coz I chose to spend money on alcohol than goin to the movies. I can't be blamed for that though..... do you know how weird it is having people staring at you coz you came out of the theatre alone!!!

He, he, he ~ I've just remembered how strange it looked when these other friends of mine found me at my place sloshed out of my mind..... ALONE, and I was dancing.

One of them even decided to have a "talk" with me coz my drinking was getting out of hand (my thought: "WTF are you talking about dude, I just had about 12 bears that's all... shoo acting like I have major drinking problems") and it was a Friday ~ everybody knows that Fridays are "Get smashed" days so you can recover on Saturday & Sunday - duh!!!!!

Ok then..... about the movie, it is a must watch, it's nice with a bit of strange romance and isht! It'll make you laugh a little.... I find the strangest things funny so I laughed a lot!!!!

Mamma's boy is next..... next weekend!

ooh, Ooh.... we are having a long one. I am so gon' love this!!

.... Monday - June9

2008-06-09T08:32:00.003+02:00

So there was a storm on Wednesday.... telkom lines were dead - that would be the reason for my quietness and boring week! No internet... and I couldn't use the office phone either.

Today I came to work looking very thuggish.... yes I am lokshin like that!

Had a niceish/quiet weekend, I was making noise but then it turns out that the other neighbor gave birth to a baby girl, 5 weeks premature and so w had to turn down the volume coz the baby was trying to sleep!!! Ya,

When I have mine.... I'll remember to make other neighbour's live miserable too just coz the baby wants to sleep!!!

So I had just a blah weekend...... with lots of beer!

Have a great week....

WednesDay...... (",)

2008-06-04T10:17:00.003+02:00

What the fuck is it with men....

Think that they are always funny. BF in "play"mode... really ticked me off & left bruises on my arms and back, people might think that I am being physically abused by a deranged lover. So basically I started today in a very bad mood!

To add to that, his aunt called last night tellin him that it was a bad idea to live with me, it is like a "vat en sit".

Let me correct her....: Our living arrangement is not a vat en sit coz ~
1. We all pay the same amount towards rent.
2. His older brother stays with us as well as another friend....... we would've gotten a 1bed flat if that was the case, duh!!!
3. The reason behind this living arrangement was so that we could save a bit of money as we were all paying too much where we living...
4. It is convenient for everybody (for now that is)
5. If I was that kind of person, (slut is what she said I was... and the woman has never met me) doesn't she think I would gotten knocked up by some estranged dude by now... I had been living alone for a long time before I hooked up with current BF.

I don't feel like on about this anymore..... my gosh! Would ya believe that...

They ( BF's fam) seem to think that I am there to spend their son's money (which is not much, just so you know) and trap him in love-less vat en sit kinda situation.............................. or some odd shit like that!

I am the one who pushes him to do stuff for his fam as both the momz & papz are retired!

(**Calming down**)

So now that is the new drama in my love thing I have going on with BF.

And I am not talking to him today........ the whole day! I plan on sulking, moaning, irritating & pissing the shit out of all my housemates for the day. Childish..... maybe, but I'll do it anyways, coz I can.

TuesDay.... hubba ~ hubba

2008-06-03T10:37:00.003+02:00

It hasn't even been a week and I am already not speaking to BF coz he refused to do the dishes last night. I made supper.....

I can't cook & do dishes while there are grown people in the house!

Like everytime something has to be done around the house.... he disappears! Oh & the excuses are there too. The "I have a terrible headaches", " I think I'm coming down with something & I am not too well" stories are old.. and I have used them all (when trying to avoid shagging)... and you'd think for a man he'd try some line I've never used on a man before!

I added yet another scar on me body... scraped my knee when I almost fell. How, why?????? I do not know, the one second I was walking then the next I was trying to balance and I was falling in a "would be very embarrassing" way. Anyways...

The new dude (the one that behaves gay but swears he is straight) asked when my female friends are coming to visit. Me said maybe this weekend and asked why.... " Oh, nothing. I am just wondering if they would want to come with us to the Blu Exclusive Party on Sats".

Uh huh.... what ever!

We (BF & I) are trying to hook up his older brother (31years old by the way) with a woman, any woman FFS... apparently he has never had a proper girlfriend and we suspect he is still a virgin. Do not ask why... we just do!

So he (older brotha) is reading & books of how to find a perfect partner and as a result of following the guidelines ~ none of what he has tried actually worked. The book is called "Waiting & Dating"

And he apparently is a born again christian person who attends some weird church but that is no excuse for him not to date.... everyone else he knows & goes to church with does.

Maybe I should butt out.....

mmmmm....

No, that is not my style........ I am the number on shit talker in the house so I'ma carry on pissing him off till he gets a GF before my BF gets too worried as he too suspects that his older brotha is gay! And you know how kasie boys are.., some just do not understand how a man can be gay when there are so many women out there.

Right..........

Back to work now!!!!

Got one......

2008-06-02T10:16:00.001+02:00

From Mrs Susan Morgan
N�[38 Rue Des Martyrs Cocody Abidjan,

Cote d'Ivoire
ATTNDEAREST ONE OF GOD

I am the above named person from Kuwait. I am married to Mr.Abram Morgan,who worked with Kuwait embassy in Ivory Coast for nine years before he diedin the year 2004.

We were married for eleven years without a child. He diedafter a brief illness that lasted for only four days.Before his death we were both born again Christian. Since his death Idecided not to remarry or get a child outside my matrimonial home which theBible is against.

When my late husband was alive he deposited the sum of$2. 5 Million (Two Million Five Hundred U.S. Dollars) in the bank here inAbidjan in suspense account.Presently, the fund is still with the bank. Recently, my Doctor told methat i have serious sickness which is cancer problem.

The one that disturbsme most is my stroke sickness. Having known my condition I decided todonate this fund to a church or individual that will utilize this money theway I am going to instruct herein. I want a church that will use this fundfor orphanages, widows, propagating the word of God and to endeavour thatthe house of God is maintained.

The Bible made us to understand that blessed is the hand that giveth. Itook this decision because I don’t have any child that will inherit thismoney and my husband relatives are not Christians and I don’t want myhusband’s efforts to be used by unbelievers. I don’t want a situation wherethis money will be used in an ungodly way. This is why I am taking thisdecision. I am not afraid of death hence i know where I am going.

I knowthat I am going to be in the bosom of the Lord. Exodus 14 VS 14 says thatthe Lord will fight my case and I shall hold my peace.I don’t need any telephone communication in this regard because of myhealth hence the presence of my husband’s relatives is around me always Idon't want them to know about this development.

With God all things arepossible. As soon as I receive your reply I shall give you the contact ofthe bank here in Abidjan. I want you and the church to always pray for mebecause the Lord is my shepherd. My happiness is that I lived a life of aworthy Christian. Whoever that wants to serve the Lord must serve him inspirit and Truth. Please always be prayerful all through your life.

Contact me on the above e-mail address for more information’s, any delay inyour reply will give me room in sourcing another church or individual forthis same purpose.

Please assure me that you will act accordingly as IStated herein. Hoping to receive yourreply.

Remain blessed in the Lord.

Yours in Christ,

Mrs susan morgan

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Fine... I got one of these e-mails too and, what I wanna know is what are these people up to realy??? It bugs me 99.

So who wams to contact them and find out what they are on about????

Monday ~ Winter is here

2008-06-02T09:00:00.005+02:00

I know I disappear sometimes- with the hope of coming back with a "bang".....(funny)

But that never happens!

I finally moved to that new place.... it's nice & biggish!

With the packing, unpacking, cleaning & doing 3week's of laundry..... I am still tired, so tired that when BF tried kissing me I told him he better stop coz he aint getting any - then later he got tired from cleaning & blah, I tried touching him & he told me to leave him alone coz I aint getting any either!!!!

I thought that we'd be shagging like monkeys since we'd be staying together full time.....

My room is a mess that I still haven't figured how I'm gon' clean up.

Oh.... we have another house mate staying with us, he insists that he is straight & attracted to older women @ that!!! This should really be fun... me staying with such funny characters!

I missed reading the posts from last week..... you know how it is like close to month end...... I have no internet connection!!!

It's starting to be cold ~ I know Joburg'az have been complaining about the cold weather for some time now but in Nelspruit.... It is still a bit warm.
I have to start investing in new pairs of socks!

This, being my very first time using prepaid electricity is gon' be tough coz apparently heaters use a lot of power.... I've never had to pay for electricity before and now I do and am being reminded to save, save, save!!! Shooo... hot water bottles it is then!

Later.........

Monday ~ the footache & witchcraft.... hee, hee

2008-05-26T08:33:00.004+02:00

Oi........

My foot is killing me, swollen and all! This started around 4pm after the function we were busy with, I told some girl that standing next to me at the time and she suspects witchcraft!

Eish mara black people sometimes........ while on that she also adviced me which witchdoctor I must go to as he is highly recommended and heals you in one day! My word, I do not believe in that nonsense but newspapers like the Daily Sun are trying to convince me that it does infact exist.... I, however still believe that I am in pain coz I was doing something my legs are not used to...... running!

I......................

2008-05-21T16:30:00.002+02:00

Honestly had something to bitch about..................

Then I got busy..............................................................

And forgot all about it............................